I'm so frustrated with myself :(

careyalis

I live in Louisville and DH just informed me the other day that we got a box for the Derby.  Normally I would be super excited about this, but now I don't even want to go.  I feel so disgusting...nothing fits and stuff that does fit isn't flattering.  I am super insecure about my body right now and I don't feel like trying on a thousand dresses just to feel like I look ugly in all of them.  It's not fair that I have all of this baby weight without my baby here to show for it.   I'm totally an emotional eater so I am constantly sabotaging myself out of any attempt to lose weight which leaves me feeling incredibly guilty and more upset in the end.  This just sucks--all of it.  I feel like everything would just fall into place if Avery were here.  Ugh!  Thanks for listening--I just needed to vent.

fluttergirlmoonchild79

I'm right there with you.  I keep sabotaging myself as well and am forever avoiding social situations where I might have to dress up and even when I don't I feel like a fat cow.  Again - baby weight with nothing to show for it.  I hate this for all of us.

Auki13

I am the exact same as you.  I am an emotional eater and have been trying so hard to curb my appetite!  And yes, the worst is having a post baby body without the baby to show for it.  At the beginning I just wanted to walk around with a sign that said- I just had a baby, that's why I look like this.  I actually got asked a couple of times if I was pregnant after I had Annabelle and once I just broke down in the store when the cashier asked me.  It was awful and I just ran out of there.  Luckily I have a great sister who has an eye for what looks good on pretty much any body types and she helped me find a dress for the funeral that I actually felt ok in.  Do you have a girl friend or someone who would possibly be able to help you out?  Maybe find something you wouldn't normally wear that would look good on you?  You deserve to feel pretty and go out.  I know it's not easy but it may just help to doll up for a day.  Good luck sweetie, and be gentle with yourself.  (hugs)

blessedhope

I'm so sorry. I know what it feels like. No matter how much i diet and excersize my belly won't be flat ever again and even though I'm thin in my arms and legs, most tops seem to make me look pregnant. My muscles never closed after pregnancy so there is nothing there to hold my belly "in". Nothing I can do can remove the deep, dark colored ugly stretch marks that start below my ribs and cover my entire stomach all the way down. My breasts are smaller and saggy with stretch marks. My entire body looks like I have had a baby yet there is no baby in my arms. I hate buying clothes and have only gotten a few things in the past year because i usually leave the store with out buying anything then go sit in the car and cry. ((hugs)) I wish we all could learn to be easier on ourselves.

Chels1222

*hugs* This is tough.  I have had the same problem lately.  Nothing fitting sucks.  I got all my summer clothes out and none of them fit. grr warm weather. Maybe you could borrow something from a friend?

littlepenguin2012

I am so sorry- I know exactly how you feel.  I am excited for you that you have a box for the Derby though- that will be fun if you decide to go. ((hugs))

lrichmond86

I hear you.  Part of me doesn't even want to lose the baby weight.  I'm holding onto it in the same way that I'm trying to hold on to anything I associate with baby Gary.  It does suck that our body changed without the outcome we had hoped for.  When I've been in situations like this, I know that I was always glad that I did go afterwards, no matter how bad or nervous or self-conscious I felt before.  I hope this works out for you!  Big hugs!

karebear57

I am the same way, been my whole life. I am so sorry your feeling this way. I wish we lived closer so I could help you find something. Although I'm not real stylish my self! But I do know how hard it is to find something that looks good. And our dh's aren't much help either, mine always says everything looks good on me...I think he does just to get us outta the store quick!

weddedwife

{{{Hugs}}}

I had the opposite problem, was too depressed to eat & I hemorrhaged after the delivery so I lost a LOT of blood. So the weight dropped pronto. But then people would see me and say, "Well, you look great!" and I'd say "I don't recommend my diet." I'd rather be puffy & postpartum right now than have my baby be dead

cherrycobbler

Right there with ya.  I could still pass as being pregnant too.  I know that all I would have to do is be diligent with the exercises (mostly a lot of crunches) but I just don't feel like it.   It's almost like I feel I shouldn't have to do anything, I was robbed of my child and all  evidence should have been taken away with him.   I don't think the way I looked would be even be an issue to me if Robin was here, I just wouldn't care about the pooch, everyone would know why I had it.  But as it is, I just look like someone who is lazy, or eats poorly and doesn't care.  And the dress part!  Oh my!  I have been shopping for weeks for a nice dress to wear on our trip to London and it was painful.  Everything I tried on looked terrible, I would have looked better in a potato sack.  I did eventually find something though that I thought looked ok (dh doesn't really like but I don't care because when I look at myself in it, I'm not disgusted) so I know you can too.  I hope you are able to go to the derby, sounds like fun no matter what you wear.  big ((hugs))