Sometimes I just want to run away

fluttergirlmoonchild79

Just heard from a very good friend of mine that she's pregnant with her 2nd child.  I do appreciate the fact that she took the time to tell me first and in private vs. me seeing it on FB or something.  I'm truly happy for her but I'm just so upset right now.  I was already not in a good place today.  Missing Corbin a lot and already thinking of the upcoming Mother's Day and how much I'm already dreading it.  I'm having one of those days where I feel like running away and going somewhere where no one knows me or my story.  I want my life back.  I want my son back.  It doesn't help that my husband has been a bit of a jerk lately and hasn't been home enough for me to really talk to him.  I had a strange thought yesterday and realized with my current age, I have at least half of my life if not more to live without my Corbin.  I always wanted life to slow down and now I just wish it would hurry up already.  The dream I had last night didn't help any.  Sorry, I just needed to vent and couldn't blog about it or FB about it or anything because my friend would know what and who I was talking about.

Heatherhah

I'm o sorry you are going through all of this. Hugs to you Always!!

jbranden12

I'm so sorry you are having a difficult time. I am terrified of friends announcing they are pregnant. lots of hugs.

magdalina.h

I'll throatpunch him for you. (Oh crap I can't because of the recent event) Honestly, I think you should blog about it. Let your friend know that it's not about her, but you need to be open about your feelings. I think it would suck if you wrote it and didn't give her a heads up. This way you are protecting your friendship, but at the same time getting it off your chest.

Are you coming on Thursday? 

fluttergirlmoonchild79

Yep, I'll be there Maggie - I see there's a certain someone who won't be.......

magdalina.h

fluttergirlmoonchild79:

Yep, I'll be there Maggie - I see there's a certain someone who won't be.......

I almost sent you a text! 

barrona

I am so sorry that it has been rough lately, but I completely understand about wanting to just run away some days. Thinking of you lots today and always!

weddedwife

I totally get the feeling of wanting to go somewhere else and start a new life. I still wish I could. We STILL have "friends" (and family!) that have yet to call us or make any attempt to see us, and I'm guessing those friendships are just over. I feel like I want a whole new set of friends, who I don't have to "judge" for how they reacted (or rather, didn't) to our loss. I wish I could start anew and just tell people if/when I got close to them.

 On another note, I'm glad your friend took the time to tell you personally and privately. I know it still stings, but this friend seems like a keeper.

blessedhope

((hugs))