Wanting to feel "healthy" again!

doodlescaboodles

This coming sunday will mark 1 month since the twins were born. Hard to believe. After my delievery I was unable to pass the placentas on my own so they did a D & C. At my follow up OB visit (3 days post-op) I was diagnosed with double mastitis which they gave me antibiotics for. 2 weeks later my OB discovered I had a uterine infection (she said its common after D&Cs)...again put on a much stronger antibiotic. I still feel like crap and I'm overly sensitive to every little cramp or twinge. There have been moments when I swear I feel the same pressure I did right before I gave birth and I wonder if literally all my insides are just gonna slide right out. I feel like its hard to judge now whats "normal" versus "something is wrong".

I am typically a VERY healthy individual. I work out nearly 5 days a week and eat realitively healthy most days (except I did eat 5 thin mints last night). Has anyone else or is anyone else battling infections or sickness after their losses? I am so frustrated that my body is giving me the middle finger and simply is "letting me down." I just want to feel like me again!

lrichmond86

I didn't have infections, but I did get kidney stones.  Like you, I felt like every little ache and pain could be something terrible.  Knowing that my body betrayed me once and didn't work the way it was supposed to by taking care of my baby, I just didn't trust that it would work in other ways, either.  I was having chest pains (from anxiety), but convinced myself that it was something worse, for example.  It does get easier.  What helped me was doing things that I knew would make me healthier, like changing my diet and exercising more.  I know it's hard now, and I'm not sure it ever really goes away, but it does get better.  So sorry you're dealing with this!

blessedhope

Just wanted to send you a hug. Hope you can get over your infections soon. I'm so sorry you have to be dealing with health issues on top of everything else. ((hugs))

jbranden12

I'm sorry you're having to deal with all of this on top of losing your girls. I think it's normal for us to be oversensitive at this point. About a week after I gave birth, I started feeling some pain and I convinced myself that I had a horrible infection and that I was going to need a hysterectomy and never be able to have any more children. I went to the Dr. and my white blood cell count was high so she gave me some antibiotics just in case, but she also did an exam and said everything felt okay.

 I'm like the "worst case scenario" version of myself. I was never like that before. I've always been a little dramatic, like when I was diagnosed with GD and I was really angry with my body.  However, I always had faith that in the end, everything would be okay and work out like it should and that my body would do what it needed to do. I've lost that now, and I'm not sure it will ever come back.