I cannot believe how much difficulty I am having with sleeping. I can't seem to get on the right combinations to put me to sleep and stay asleep all night. This is exactly what happened to me with my first, except I had extreme PPD/PPA then. I don't seem to have that now, though in the middle of the night I experience extreme anxiety!
I have gotten to the point where I don't have to wake up during the night to pump or feed (I made it 8 hours last night) as I think that might have been a trigger in my not being able to go back to sleep. My husband is fine with getting up with DD (she usually wakes up anywhere from 2-4) and I get up with my DS when he wakes up. However, I've been falling asleep at around 10, and waking up anywhere from 2-4 and then completely unable to go back to sleep without a solid dose of meds like Trazodone and Ativan (safe for BFing). I'm not sure what else I can get take or to do to get me to fall back asleep when I wake up.
In the past, I had horrible racing thoughts and anxiety, and depression. This time around I'm simply not sleeping. I am mad that I can't sleep, and disappointed and feel broken and like a loser and all that, but I don't have the crippling depression (thank goodness).
Help!
Re: Anyone have significant difficulty sleeping?
I started my day around 2:30 this morning. My DD slept from 10-5 and while my DS woke up around 3am (he's having sleeping issues too!) I should have been able to get a full night's sleep and I couldn't. It's horrible.
My DS is only 11 days old and I feel constant worry about him and I hate it when he whines, especially when he's full fledged crying. I don't mind being alone with him for so long but after a while, I start to feel like I need someone else. Like maybe I'm going to do something wrong or forget to feed him or SOMETHING. (I'd NEVER hurt him though!) And then I went a full 48 hours without sleeping and my SO told me he'd take care of LO while I slept. It took me an hour to fall asleep but once I did, I was only asleep for a couple hours, if that, and then woke up.
Then this morning I slept from 7 to 10 and when I finally got out of bed at about 11, my mom was feeding baby with some formula. My PPD has made it really hard to EBF like I thought I wanted to do.
I feel like I'm on a downward spiral )':