feeling kind of normal.

mumsie28

These last few days have been kind of hard. As I posted before, I am still in the process of miscarrying. Its just a little here and a little there when I use the washroom. I am still having pain but Ibprofen has helped alot. Last night I was watching netflix after my husband fell asleep and out of nowhere I was crying. Quietly so I wouldn't wake my hubby but I have no idea what triggered it. I was watching Ice Road Truckers of all things. That should not have triggered any emotions for me. Crazy!

Anyways, today I was kind of sad, crappy whatever this morning. Now I feel motivated. I am even debating if I want to go to the gym, even if all I do is walk slow on the treadmill. I have a dr appointment in 2 hours to meet with a counselor through work to talk about everything. One nice thing about my job is that they give you 6 free sessions when something like this happens. I used this same doctor when my dad passed.

Ugh, now as I was typing this work texted me about something (I am still on leave) and I already feel my anxiety. Stupid work... ok putting it out of my mind...

Anyone else get bursts of energy where you feel like maybe everything will be okay? I just have to be careful to not overdo it... I feel ready to start cleaning out the garage but I have to restrain myself to doing small things. lol

heather4hawks

Cherish those bursts when you get them and try to hold on to those thoughts when you are sad. I felt like I was on a constant emotional roller coaster for a few weeks after my ectopic with my moods changing by the minute sometimes. The highs slowly start to occur more often until the are more frequent than the lows.

oktobersky

When I started to get bursts of energy I found that working on things in the house really helped.  We moved in about a year ago and still have lots of things to paint, boxes to unpack, furniture to assemble, etc.  I found just diving into something to keep myself busy has really helped, although I do agree, you need to make sure you don't overdo it.  I like to be in control of things, and with a miscarriage you have absolutely zero control, and being able to do something that I DO have control over makes me feel a bit better. 

I really wish you all the best and I hope that every day gets a bit better for you.  *hugs*