Been down and something to look forward to

wmthorpe0815

As I come out of the fog I am having a hard time. Seeing babies everywhere and all of these pregnant people. I hate it. I still dont understand.why she was taken away and other people get to keep there babies. I miss her so much all of the time. I have been doing everything to give myself a confidence boost. I have been working out and am in the best shape I have ever been in, I have bought a whole new wardrobe (my husband and bank account are crying), and I completely changed my look new went completely blonde (from brunette) and cut all my hair off. None of it helps though. They are just small distractions but most of the time it doesnt help. Its hard I keep thinking the pain will ease but it doesnt. I should be almost 34 weeks pregnant. UGH life just really sucks sometimes.

But on a happy note Letson's name is on the sunset list. It makes me smile to see her name on the list. I cant wait to get that picture. We also found a church we loved so hopefully we all can learn and grow with this new group. Sorry for the rant. I have been wanting to post but of course life always seems to get in the way. Again I am always so sad to see new names on here but am grateful ya'll are here. Love you girls so much.

littlepenguin2012

Big ((hugs)).  It is so great that Letson's name is on the list.  I am sure her sunset will be beautiful.  I do understand what you mean about other things just being distractions. Sending you T&Ps.  

fluttergirlmoonchild79

So happy to hear Letson's name is on the sunset list.  Those sunsets all turn out so beautifully. 

 I totally understand about the rough time you're going through.  I gotta say "kudos" though on the weight loss and hair change.  I'm a little over 4 months out and I'm finding it hard to even want to lose weight or do something different with my hair.  I know he knows who I am regardless but I have this stupid fear that if I change the way I look my Corbin won't be able to recognize me or know who I am.  {{HUGS}}

dandywarhol

I understand what you're feeling.  I really think that nothing can help but time.  And that answer sucks.  {{hugs}}

 

 

flutter, don't worry, Corbin will know his mama's love no matter what you look like.  Love is blind.   

blessedhope

((hugs))