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Easter/Passover wknd - how did you all do?

Can i just say thank goodness Easter / Passover is done with and there are no big "family" holidays coming up (i know memorial day, 4th of july are holidays but no Thanksgiving, etc for awhile). I think during IF is so much harder to handle during holiday get-togethers with relatives/friends who have kids, talking about kids, etc.

All i can remember is last Easter when i got my AF after IUI#2 and we went to a brunch at our friend's house....who also got KU'd WITH TWIN GIRLS after dating her bf for only 3months. How the hell does that even happen? it seemed like the parade of kids never ended. it was horrible. 

I avoid FB yesterday like the plague - too many pics of babies in Easter clothes and rolling eggs and all of that. My wife and I opted to go away for the weekend - much-needed and relaxing! we had such a good time AND we (purposely) stayed at an adults-only hotel - instead of doing any Easter festivities with friends. It was a good decision.  

but i still found myself thinking about babies and our upcoming IVF and my crappy DOR diagnosis and all the what-ifs that go along with it. I'm in the terrible in-between time where i can't really do much to prep for my July/Aug IVF but wait, but i'm too close to it to not think about it at all. after feeling pretty positive for a few weeks last night/this morning i'm feeling a little down.

how did everyone else hold up over the holiday wknd?  

Me: 31yrs old. In same/sex relationship for 12years
I'm carrying & we are using anonymous donor sperm
In March 2012 diagnosed with Diminished Ovarian Reserve (AMH = O.67) & IVF recommended

FET (2 5dt embryos) on 11/5/12= BFP! Beta #1=58; Beta #2=98, Beta #3=373. First u/s on 11/28/12 = 1 sac with fetal pole & heartbeat! Next u/s = 12/12/12

TTC History
IVF#1 (Antagonist Protocol) Sept 2012 = BFN
10R; 8F; 4 Day5 GradeA embryos. Put back 2, froze 2.
12 IUIs (in 9 cycles) since March 2011:
6 unmedicated/unmonitored = BFNs
3 with Clomid/Trigger/monitoring/progesterone = BFNs
"The Spirit of God moves over the formless void, over the darkness and deep, over the surface of the waters. When there is nothing...God is still there."

Re: Easter/Passover wknd - how did you all do?

  • We did pretty well for the most part. At one point, before lunch, our niece was fussy so my brother took her back a bedroom to take a nap. We peaked in and she was asleep on his chest, while he was sleeping. This killed DH. He's so worried that he'll never have a moment like that.

    All-in-all it was a nice day, but by the end we were emotionally drained.

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    Beta #1=81.1 Beta #2=134.5 Beta #3=58.1 #4=2369 WTH?!-Not sure if its viable
    2/21/13 - Went to RE expecting the worse and saw the flutter of the heart.To God be the Glory!!
     
    5/29 - It's a Girl!!
    8/21/13 - Naomi born at 32w3d by csection due to Pre-E
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    We did pretty well for the most part. At one point, before lunch, our niece was fussy so my brother took her back a bedroom to take a nap. We peaked in and she was asleep on his chest, while he was sleeping. This killed DH. He's so worried that he'll never have a moment like that.

    All-in-all it was a nice day, but by the end we were emotionally drained.

    I totally get this... MH and I dropped off my nephew at his dad's house after having him for a week, when MH saw my nephew go running up to his dad all excited, he started crying... I wanted to die. It broke me. Best part? I was kinda ready for him to go home- he was in a mood all week! LOL

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  • I was fine until I got kind of cornered by DH's step-grandma and she started talking about our m/c... then I was ready to go home. I just wasn't ready to go there mentally... I know what you mean about holidays, and I second your excitement that nothing else big is coming up for a minute!
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  • I felt "ok" in the moment even though we were at a friend's who has a one month old and a toddler... but towards the end of the day I was totally fried and went to bed as soon as we got home.  :-/
  • I definitely had better days. I was in a depressed state most of the day.  Then I went to my in-laws, where there were 9 children hyped up on candy.  I held it together while I was there but lost it on the way home.  I have been in funk since my beta finally got to zero and can't seem to shake it.  Keeping busy isn't a problem, since I've been working out almost every day for at least an hour and I'm starting to study for my GMAT.  I keep telling myself, "Tomorrow will be better" but I just can't get to that "better day." 
    Brandon Le born 9/9/13 as a result of IVF#1


  • mnj05mnj05 member

    I had a mix of emotions this weekend. My SIL is pregnant after 2 years of procedures and an IVF and I got to feel my niece kick a few times!! I am so crazy excited for this little girl and have not had one ounce of IF bitterness or jealousy, I just can't wait to meet her! SIL has also been great to talk to about my first, upcoming IVF.

    My family, on the otherhand, kept asking about us about babies. We haven't told anyone, for several reasons, about our IF so I guess it's expected, but it still kind of pissed me off.

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    TTC #1 since 3/2011
    DX: anovulatory and severe MFI
    DH is a testicular cancer survivor
    IVF#1 w/ICSI lupron, gonal f, ovidrel
    ER 6/15/12 6R 6M 6F! ET 6/20/12
    Beta #1: 154 Beta #2: 509 Beta #3: 7326
    Baby Boy born 3/1/2013
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker

    TTC#2: 6/2014 all testing came back normal

    IVF#2 (#1 for LO#2) 9/2014 - 17R 10M 10F 4 blasts frozen on day 6.

    FET #1 10/15/14 - Beta #1: 216  Beta #2: 823


    Baby Boy born 7/10/2015


  • thanks for sharing everyone :) mixture of emotions, indeed. and i can totally relate to being emotionally drained following visits with kids.

    DImples - i'm so sorry you are so down. FX today is your better day :)

    Me: 31yrs old. In same/sex relationship for 12years
    I'm carrying & we are using anonymous donor sperm
    In March 2012 diagnosed with Diminished Ovarian Reserve (AMH = O.67) & IVF recommended

    FET (2 5dt embryos) on 11/5/12= BFP! Beta #1=58; Beta #2=98, Beta #3=373. First u/s on 11/28/12 = 1 sac with fetal pole & heartbeat! Next u/s = 12/12/12

    TTC History
    IVF#1 (Antagonist Protocol) Sept 2012 = BFN
    10R; 8F; 4 Day5 GradeA embryos. Put back 2, froze 2.
    12 IUIs (in 9 cycles) since March 2011:
    6 unmedicated/unmonitored = BFNs
    3 with Clomid/Trigger/monitoring/progesterone = BFNs
    "The Spirit of God moves over the formless void, over the darkness and deep, over the surface of the waters. When there is nothing...God is still there."

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