Things My Heart needs to say...

MommaHals

To my Dearest BumbleBee,

You are loved.  You were loved before you were created in my womb and you will continue to be loved even though you are no longer with us.  

I longed to hold you and now that that is not possible, I search daily for a tangible reminder of you to hold and feel.  Nothing seems right... nothing seems good enough.  How could it, when you were our Baby, nothing but you will be right.

My heart was filled with joy when I first saw that positive test and with every wave of nausea and sleepless night filled with discomfort only made me more joyful as I knew that you were growing and living.

As your daddy and I struggle with the reality that you are no longer growing inside of me and the truth hits us hard each day, I pray that you are in Heaven waiting for us to arrive one day.  You will always be in our hearts and on our minds. 

As I sit here and remember you all I can do is cry.  All I can feel is sadness of the life we will never get to spend together. 

If 'moving on' means forgetting, I want to stay right here.  But I know that you will not feel forgotten when we try again for another child.  BumbleBee you will forever be our first baby.  

I love you.  

Mommy

sweetiestar

thats really sweet, sorry for your loss.

 

dmgalley25

I am so sorry for your loss. Know that you are not alone. We are all here going through this together.

jackiemary

So sweet. Writing a similar letter to conclude the letters I had started writing when I go my BFP. It's so sad.

MommaHals

Thank you all for your support.  It is hard to put every feeling into words... even to those who are going through this journey also, but just knowing that there is a place that I can come and put my feelings down is such a blessing.

God bless each of you! 

Sarahkoch1587

Words I wanted to say, but couldn't find in all the sadness. Well done.