Bad IUI post wash numbers, but keeping hope alive (long)

katib77 · April 2012

Hi Ladies, Hope you've all been having a good Easter. We drove out to downtown Chicago this morning for our holiday IUI. They have the nicest & funniest staff there and I felt immediately comfortable that we were at a "strange" office this time.

DH went off to give his sample and came back giving thumbs up on nice facility (He liked there was a new clean sheet for the leather chair so he knew his bare @ss wasn't sitting on a chair tons of bare butts had been on.

Since he'd had two S/A's since we were canceled in January, I knew the steroids were out of his system. But because of MFI being a crap shoot, I knew there was really no telling what results we might have today. March 5th his S/A with RE was 47mil with 38% motility. But Uro S/A just two weeks later was only 13mil. So I sat and sent him good vibes.

When it was time for the IUI they called us back and told me to get ready. I joked with DH that since in January we never even got to the stage of me taking off my pants, this was already going better than our canceled cycle in January.

But then the nurse came in and told me the post wash that they were putting in me was .9 million. I said "I'm sorry, did you say POINT nine?" and got sad immediately. But the nurse and DH were so sweet and confidant that it's quality over quantity and she's seen people get pregnant on the smallest of small samples. (((But all I heard in my head was "most clinics cancel if there is less than a million! They are taking pity on us since last cycle was canceled at this point."))) But they said "have hope." So I decided right then and there that I was going to stay as positive as I could. I put a smile on my face, laid back and said "You're right. Let's do this." I did not shed a tear, and felt amazingly OK with it.

There is of course the sperm that made it from our Sex on Friday late afternoon, and a few more will join the mix when we get it on tonight. So who knows? I know I've seen ladies on here get PG off a post wash of just a million, so why not me? It can happen and I'm holding on to that with all my might. And since his numbers do jump all over the board, for all I know Friday was like his March 5th S/A and there were millions upon millions that were good swimmers.

tmsetzer83 · April 2012

Yay for staying positive! Keeping fingers crossed for you!

kellyrn9956 · April 2012

I'm so sorry to hear this love. You did so good not crying! I cry every time, except for when H's counts were over 10 million. I am a big blubbering baby (counts have been 2-3 million for first 3 IUI's) during every IUI. I think it's the Clomid though.

It can totally happen! Since you took advantage of Friday and will take advantage of tonight, you'll have more in the mix! I am keeping all fingers and toes crossed. God bless.

I don't know if you are religious, but it is a miraculous holiday today.

pinkmickey24 · April 2012

Good for you and your ability to stay positive. Fingers crossed that his your cycle.

jkremp · April 2012

Keeping my fingers crossed for you! You're amazing for staying so positive!!

katib77 · April 2012

kellyrn9956:
I'm so sorry to hear this love. You did so good not crying! I cry every time, except for when H's counts were over 10 million. I am a big blubbering baby (counts have been 2-3 million for first 3 IUI's) during every IUI. I think it's the Clomid though.

It can totally happen! Since you took advantage of Friday and will take advantage of tonight, you'll have more in the mix! I am keeping all fingers and toes crossed. God bless.

I don't know if you are religious, but it is a miraculous holiday today.

Thanks Kelly. I am not very religious, my DH and his family are, as well as my mother, brother's wife, and my three nephews on that side and all but DH were in church this morning throwing up a ton of prayers. (My Mom, SIL and 3 nephews actually went to two services - my mom's Methodist church and SIL took them to Mass) so I do know I've had lots of prayers on our behalf, some at the exact moment of the IUI. And while I have odd religious views that are too hard to put into words here, I'll admit I will take every prayer I can get!

notquiteblushing · April 2012

I'm glad you're staying positive about this. Fingers crossed for you.

mnj05 · April 2012

FX for you! Keep that positive attitude up!

pulga131 · April 2012

Oh Kati I'm so sorry to hear this. All I can say is kudos to you for staying positive! You guys keep getting bad news and it's so not fair. I'm crossing everything for you hun!!! Here's hoping YH sperm were good egg hunters at some point this weekend!!!

machole513 · April 2012

Kati, I love hw positive you are, it helps me remind myself I need tbe too. As you know we are MFI too and our problem is our post wash motility numbers. I always do research to find people who have gotten pg with 1 million, and I did find quite a few, unfortunatlly we have had 5 that haven't worked but I have my fingers crossed for you!

sbrowns08 · April 2012

Kati my fingers are totally crossed for you. My heart goes out to you because I know exactly how you are feeling right now. How many times did I ask myself "How can you have 100 million sperm and we only get 3 million out of it?!" MFI is such a bumpy road. I hope that this sample does the trick for you!