I feel like I need to talk

dmgalley25

but I don't even know what to say. I am just so sad and i don't even know what step to take to start heading in the right direction. I was worried about something being wrong with the baby because of my age, but once i heard the heart beat I never thought of something like this happening. I keep telling myself it gets better. It must because people try again. I just feel so broken right now.

EKGibs

Bethelgal42:

{Hugs} I hope you find some comfort here.  I ever think anyone expects something like this to happen to them.  I remember thinking, "Wait, I'm a good person. This isn't supposed to happen to people like me."  I quickly learned that it does happen and it happens way to much.  You are not alone. 

It does get easier with time.  Eventually, you will start having more good days than day. For now though, don't be afraid to grieve however you need to.

this. ((((((hugs)))))))

dmgalley25

thank you both. I have started to bleed and i just hope it all passes quickly.

stel29

It is good that you recognize that you need to talk.  I understand feeling that and then also not even knowing where to begin or what to say.  Having a good friend that can sit with me and hold me in the painful silence has been immensely helpful for me.  I too hope this goes quickly and is as easy on your body as possible.  For me, it hasn't been a quick process, but it's been a livable one.  The couple of hours of the main miscarriage part were rough, but I got through them.  So can you.  Keep talking as you need to . . . we'll listen. 

dmgalley25

I started to bleed last night and then it stopped again. I have a D&C set up for tues and i guess i am just going to do it. the waiting is so so hard on me. The morning is the worst. I go to sleep and dream i am pg they wake up and know i am not. My doctor made me feel like it may not be the best idea to try again because of my age. I just wish i could fast forward a few months.

stel29

Thinking of you and Tuesday.  Maybe you'll have more of a sense of finality after that.  The dreams are hard.  I dreamed about the miscarriage and the blood a few times... not fun.  Do you have any other kids?  If not, and you want to be a mom, or you want more kids, I sincerely hope that happens for you, in one way or another, through your body or someone else's.  One of my friends was talking to me yesterday about having a "mamma's heart"... I get it SO MUCH.