Hello. (child (son) mentioned)

Coopaloop

I'm new here.  Truthfully, I never thought I'd be here.  I have a beautiful, healthy boy who is just about 2.  My pregnancy with him was easy, as was the delivery.  Stupidly, I assumed all pregnancies went that way.

 My husband and I decided to try for #2 starting in February.  We were shocked but so, so excited when I got a positive pregnancy test in March. 

 Last week I had some severe cramping in my upper stomach - because of where the cramps were located and because there was no blood, my doctor wasn't concerned.  Regardless, he had me come in just to do a quick check.  We saw a baby and a heartbeat.  I was so relieved.  The doctor told me the baby was measuring a bit small (not a big deal, he said) and the heartbeat was a little slow, but according to him, 95% of situations like this end up just fine.

 I went back yesterday for a routine 8 week check-up.  I ended up being the 5% where the situation wasn't just fine.  The baby's heart had stopped beating.  

My husband and I are leaving the country on Saturday so although it was my decision, my doctor said it would probably be in my best interest to do a D&C (Other than the cramping last week - which may or may not have been associated - i had zero signs of miscarriage).  I had the D&C yesterday in the office.  It was so sad. 

So now I'm just sitting here, not quite sure what to do with myself.  My little boy turns 2 tomorrow and I don't want to take any happiness away from his birthday, but selfishly, it is so difficult to put a happy face on and act like all is okay.  For him, I will figure it out.

I feel like I am rambling.  I guess I just don't know what to say, or how to say it, so I wanted to share my story.  I am so sorry for anyone that has to be a part of this board.  

Thanks. 

Schambers422

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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So sorry for your loss. Most of our family & friends had no idea that we were pregnant and then that we had lost it.. I have a friend who lives all the way in Hawaii so I felt safe to talk to her. By just telling my story & expressing exactly how sad I was.. it seemed to make me feel better. **Hugs**

zzyyxx

I'm so sorry for your loss.

dmgalley25

I am so sorry for your loss and i know exactly how you feel. Last week i was listening to his hb and today i was told he no longer has one.  I have to wait until tues for the d&c if i don't mc before then. I am lost. I feel like i just got use to being pg and now i have to what get use to this loss... I am so glad to have you ladies because I know that nobody else really gets it.

mumsie28

I had my m/c the day before my son's 8th birthday. I understand some of what you are going through. I was going to cancel his birthday party, which was a family only party, but I couldn't do that to him. Then the next day was Easter. I do think that having family around and talking about what happened has made it easier for me. I can now tell people without breaking down.