How are you putting the pieces back together?

klbowie

Right, now I am sitting at work crying because my boss stopped by to ask me how I was doing.  I thought I could make it through the day but as soon as I woke up this morning I had no desire to come to work.  My cramping was worse this morning and so was my bleeding.  I don't know if it was from the stress of coming back to work or what. 

I work four tens so I thought I would be able to make it just two days this week but that doesn't seem to be the case.  I think I am going to leave early today and take tomorrow off too.  I am afraid people are going to judge me for taking off so much time.

I know it has only been a few days since my actual miscarraige but I would like to be back to normal now!  Or at least make it through the work day without crying because I feel miserable.  I can feel my heart breaking today. 

Is there anything you guys have found that are making the days bearable?

Also, easter this weekend!  I love spending time with my family but I think Sunday is going to be a really rough one for me.  Seeing everyone happy when I just want to cry! 

Thank for letting me vent.

DuckieD

I'm sorry for you loss. It's been nearly 5 months since I lost my son. It does get a little easier with time but all can say is go steady. Don't rush yourself, going through the holidays are one of the hardests parts.

After struggling through christmas last year, I remember dreading the day, but once it was over I felt good to have made it through. You imagine the day a lot different to what it actually turns out to be.

Big hugs xx  

MWoodside

I'm sorry for your loss.

Initially, I cut myself off from everyone.  I took 1.5 weeks off work (my D&C was several days after the missed m/c was discovered).  I didn't want to pick up the phone or return texts or emails.  Not even to my parents.  I just didn't want to talk about it or communicate at all with anyone other than DH & DD.

Then I returned to work so I had to get over that.  The first day back was hard.  I holed up in my cubicle & just worked.  No chatting.  I had asked my boss to tell those at work that knew I was pg (I was already showing) about the loss & not to approach me about it b/c I didn't want to cry at work.  That helped.

Other than that time helps heal.  I treated myself gently.  Didn't judge myself for however I was feeling.  It helped to get back into my workout routine once I was cleared for that.  Time does help.  It's hard to beleive that now, but it really does.

klbowie

Thank you ladies for all the kind words and advise.  I few minutes after posting this my boss came in and told me I still had comp time available.  I think it was her way of saying, "go home.  You look miserable and you need more time."  I love my job because of people like her.  She understood I'm not a big whimp and I did experience I real lose. 

Thank you and hopefully the days get easier for all of us.  T & P''s are with all of you.