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Writing lesson plans for due date is terrible

And finding a place to cry at work is very difficult as a teacher.I have an incredibly tough group of kids and parents so I've been super stressed and on edge this school year when I usually love my job. Today while planning for next week with my grade level I was staring at the date April 9 and thinking of all of the joy that was associated with that day. I was supposed to be having my babies in the hospital or else cuddling them at home while on maternity leave, not teaching a difficult bunch of kids about insects and counting money.

 So I ran out of the meeting bawling and a bunch of classes were lined up in the hallway for lunch. My not-so warm and fuzzy assistant principal was standing there and took me into the conference room. She did listen when I spoke to her about my frustrations with the class, the parents, and more importantly my due date. Unfortunately she didn't offer to help in any way (such as letting me go home, giving me help for the day, speaking to my class or their parents, encouraging me to take monday off, etc). My school friend picked up my class for me and another friend gave me her assistant to help me get through the rest of the day. The good news is I had a therapy appt today and she wrote me a note to take April 9 off. So now I just need to find a friend to meet me for lunch or a mani/pedi on Monday to distract me a bit. 

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Re: Writing lesson plans for due date is terrible

  • I planned for my due date (April13th) this week too. I'm not sure how I'm going to manage. Teaching is hard because ther is NO place to have a moment to yourself. I have to schedule time in my day to use the restroom for goodness sake! I'm sorry you had a rough day :(
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  • Luckily my EDD was on a Saturday, so I wasn't in school for that day.  I also have an extremely challenging class this year (they're only 5 but they have no appreciation for anything and are just unkind and defiant) and I often find myself fantasizing about what I would have been doing if baby Gary hadn't died.  Sorry it was a tough day.  Hope tomorrow is a little better!
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  • I'm sorry too Jessica. You may be my closest due date buddy on the board. I'll be thinking of you next week too. I seriously couldn't even write the date on the paper so I hope I can make it through the sub plans. Can you take Friday off? I'm so glad my Dr. wrote me a note because in my district we can't take time off attached to a vacation weekend (Good Friday).

    Irich-mine are only 6 years old so I understand! I wish they could have a bit of compassion but they are even worse when I'm having a bad day because they sense they can get away with more. I was actually "excited" when I was going on bedrest in December because I thought I was done with this class since I would have had the babies in April and then taken my 12 weeks.

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  • I was relieved for bedrest, too, and for the same reason!  Having such a difficult class really puts extra stress on the pregnancy that is unneeded!  It was so hard to go back to them in January, although I would have finished the year out with them anyway since I was only planning to take 8 weeks. 
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  • I'm so sorry you had a rough day. Being at school can be brutal. You're right about not having a moment to yourself. I constantly think all day, "If my boys were still here would I be home with them instead of here with other people's children? Would I still be pregnant? Would this be the day they would have come?"

    It seems that although your assistant principal is not very supportive, you have some good support at school. I hope the next few weeks go quickly for you (and for all of us with due dates coming up). I am counting down the days until summer!

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    So now I just need to find a friend to meet me for lunch or a mani/pedi on Monday to distract me a bit. 

    I wish I had known earlier because I have plans that day.  Otherwise, I would've totally done lunch with you!!!

    I hope you find someone.  {{squishy hugs}}

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  • I'm sorry you are having a rough day :(. My edd is coming up on the 16th and it is the first day back after sprink break, so I feel like I have to work. Thinking about you on Monday!



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  • I'm glad you got the day off. For me, the anticipation was much worse than the actual day.
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