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Guess I was due for a meltdown...

Petunia844Petunia844 member
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It kind of came out of no where, I just felt like I needed to be close to him, so first I went and sat in his room holding his quilt, then I took out his memory box and just totally lost it, looking at everything...his photos, his sleeper... just bawling... then I took his book (on the night you were born) into his room and read it to him.  I just miss him... so much.  Big hugs mamas, nobody will ever understand what we go through.
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Married the love of my life 7/11/09 - Our first baby, Peyton Mark, was born sleeping 10/25/11 at 33 weeks - Our second baby, BFP 2/4/12, welcome to the world Raylan! Holy Moly, BPF 2/4/14, please be safe and sound little one!

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  • barronabarrona

    Big hugs to you Petunia! I have the same thing happen every once in a while and I go through her memory box just like you did for Peyton. It's so crazy how these moments seem to come out of nowhere but hit so hard. On another note, I read some of your blog and it is great. You are such a great writer. I hope blogging has been a good way to express your feelings and it can be somewhat healing.

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    Big hugs to you Petunia! I have the same thing happen every once in a while and I go through her memory box just like you did for Peyton. It's so crazy how these moments seem to come out of nowhere but hit so hard. On another note, I read some of your blog and it is great. You are such a great writer. I hope blogging has been a good way to express your feelings and it can be somewhat healing.

    Thank you, it is very healing for me.  I hope one day when this new baby is born it will be a source of hope for loss mamas and preeclampsia mamas too.

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  • foxxy1foxxy1 member
    *HUGS*
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    Sending you my love. 
    Momma to 2 sweet girls here on earth and a precious baby boy in heaven
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  • Chels1222Chels1222
    *Hugs*
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    ((hugs))
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  • weddedwifeweddedwife member
    Big hugs Petunia. I think as more time passes, we have to have these moments of "release".
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  • lizzythom9106lizzythom9106 member

    I'm sorry it's been a rough one for you. I had a bad day yesterday (the three month from my loss mark). Honestly, I feel better for it. It sucks to have the breakdowns, but I always bounce back to my new normal and feel better for having let go a little.

    As an aside, I love your blog :) I am sorry it started for such a tragic reason, but it is beautifully written and expresses just who I feel a lot of the time.

    angel nicknamed Blue Sunday- lost at 18w6d to trisomy 18 1/4/2012 Liz and Chris. Married 5 years 9/1/2011 :) Deployment survivor :) PAL/PgAL welcome
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