Is it too late?

littlepoppyface

I'm embarrassed to even write this out, but I need advice and I have very few IRL friends to talk to.Ive suffered from minor depression for years. A few years before DH and I met it was so bad that I contemplated ending my own life. When we met, things seemed better and I slowly weaned myself off of my medication. Two months after we got married I got pregnant with DS. Although it was an unexpected surprise, I couldn't have been happier. Throughout my pregnancy things seemed to be going well and I didn't feel the need for my medication. When I had DS, it all changed. All of the feelings of worthlessness and depression came flooding back. At my 6 week PP checkup, I talked to my dr and she prescribed me the same medication I had been on before. I take it daily but it doesn't seem to be helping. Im at a complete loss right now. I'm lashing out at my husband, want nothing to do with anyone, refuse to leave my son for any amount of time for fear of something bad happening, and just feel all out of sorts. I think I have PPD. I love my son more than anything and would never harm him in any way, but I don't feel like I take good care of him right now. I either spend my day crying, laying in bed, or yelling at my husband over nothing. I'm embarrassed and scared and ashamed. I'm worried that if I tell anyone IRL, they will judge me. I'm also not sure what to do. Do I call my OB? Is it too late to be diagnosed with  PPD? 

MissRachel621

OP, I am just lurking and I don't have a child, but I wanted to reach out to you.  It is not to late to be diagnosed with PPD, and you should absolutely 100% call your OB, right now, if possible.  Please PM me if you want to just talk or vent. Like I said, I don't have children, but I can relate to some of what you're going through.

frecks2112

Here's a resource: https://www.postpartum.net/ 

 SOunds like you need to either up the dose of your medication or you need to find a different medication. GET MORE HELP! It will be worth every minute you spend finding the right care. You are worth it! Call any hospital, they will connect you with an abundance of resources. I work at a Children's Hospital and there is so much support there for PPD/PPA.

You are worth it! 

cottonlily84

You don't have to worry about telling anyone or having them judge you.  First you are more important that what people think and secondly the only person you have to speak with is your doctor.  Tell her the meds you're on now aren't working well enough anymore. 

reg224

Not too late at all. I have a 7.5 month old and am just going to see my OB this month. I talked to him at my 6 week pp appt and he said at that point it just seemed like baby blues, but to come back if I thought otherwise. I waited this long because I had good days and thought I was fine. I've realized recently that I'm not, so I'm going back. I'm embarrassed to have waited this long, but at this point, its more important to get help. Only my DH and IRL Bff know, and neither have judged me Good luck mama!

bim38106

I was diagnosed when DD2 was a year old. It is not too late. Please call your OB and get help. I really wish I hadn't waited 3 years (because it started after I had DD1).