iluvadam

nikinikinine

I'm glad to hear that pregnancy amnesia is normal. 

I feel like such a delinquent pregnant lady. I haven't done the weekly belly pics, I don't get regular u/s's since it's "just" a singleton. This kid is going to get here and be like, "nice mom - my brother and sister have two photo albums of them in your belly and I have one picture". LOL

I can hardly keep up with our house and the kids some days, that I feel like an epic failure. But I know this too shall pass. Or #3 will get here and this level of chaos will just become my new normal and I'll forget that I ever had control of this ship. Ha!

I'm so excited to hear about your consult on Friday. I had one last year after the twins were born, before I knew what we were doing about #3, and I was angry when I left. I just wasn't ready to hear the words "full tummy tuck" at the time. And the PS was a total douche. I am hoping I have a better experience once I'm ready to move forward. I am terrified of elective surgery that will keep me from functioning at full throttle. And I do try not to think about the dangers too much because I know anything can happen at any time. But it is so scary to put yourself first!  

iluvadam

nikinikinine:

I'm glad to hear that pregnancy amnesia is normal. 

I feel like such a delinquent pregnant lady. I haven't done the weekly belly pics, I don't get regular u/s's since it's "just" a singleton. This kid is going to get here and be like, "nice mom - my brother and sister have two photo albums of them in your belly and I have one picture". LOL

I can hardly keep up with our house and the kids some days, that I feel like an epic failure. But I know this too shall pass. Or #3 will get here and this level of chaos will just become my new normal and I'll forget that I ever had control of this ship. Ha!

I'm so excited to hear about your consult on Friday. I had one last year after the twins were born, before I knew what we were doing about #3, and I was angry when I left. I just wasn't ready to hear the words "full tummy tuck" at the time. And the PS was a total douche. I am hoping I have a better experience once I'm ready to move forward. I am terrified of elective surgery that will keep me from functioning at full throttle. And I do try not to think about the dangers too much because I know anything can happen at any time. But it is so scary to put yourself first!  

Oh my gracious.  I just went back through your blog and read the post about the douche-canoe PS you went to.  WTF?!  So insensitive.  I cannot believe he wouldn't have been more understanding of what you were looking for. 

This was soooo not the route I wanted to take either.  I have beaten myself up every day for "taking the easy way out" of this.  I think to myself, if I had only worked harder, if I had only...fill in the blank.  But now I realize that it is time to stop being so hard on myself.  I have been told by my OB, my PT, and another PS that I am not going to be able to repair the muscles or the excess skin without this surgery.  And another totally vane issue I have is my belly button.  Because of my endo, I had three laps prior to my hysterectomy and my belly button looks completely jacked!  I hate it.  I cannot stand the fact that my body looks nothing like it used to.  I want to be able to wear a two-piece like I used to and look good.  Now, I know that I am 33 and have carried, and given birth to 3 kids. I know my body isn't going to look like I'm 23 but what is so wrong with wanting to look and feel the best I possibly can?  What is wrong with aging gracefully?  

I have been over this time and time again.  I have gone back and forth and back and forth.  I am ready to put me first.  As for the risks associated with it, I think when your time is up, your time is up.  Maybe I am being naive but  I don't think it is anymore dangerous than carrying multiples or having a c-section.  Granted is isn't medically necessary physically speaking, but it is necessary for my emotional well-being.  I, like so many other women out there, need to look good for myself in order to feel good.  And when I feel good, we have a very happy household, LOL!  As my H always says, "Happy wife, happy life."