Says my Mom after a family dinner tonight. I take a breath before responding...."No sh*t, why do you think people don't call often, and I don't do anything social."
My mom then goes on to say that she is confused by my anxiety. She knows I am nervous about what people might say, but she also knows it irks me when people say NOTHING and they know what happened. "So, is there no happy-medium?" she asks. "Ummmmmmm, there is nothing HAPPY about this" I respond. But then I elaborate that nothing is "right". I don't want people to ask questions or say much, but it is also frustrating when people ignore the fact that my baby died.
"Well, the word "die" is prob a lot for people too" my mom says. "Really?!?! Well, it's a lot for me too; but it's what happened!!" I respond.
I guess there is really no point to this. I just feel so angry and hardened lately and I guess my mom was just pointing it out (not that I didn't know). My mom is super supportive, but likes to talk and analyze and I'm just over that.