Is it normal to sway between panic attacks and excitement

delino

Today I have had a bit more anxiety about everything that's coming.  Sometimes I'm really excited when I think about getting my rainbow, but I keep letting my mind wander to everything that can go wrong.  I know it's a bad idea, but I can't help it.  How do you stay focused and not let it get the best of you?

AngnShaun

I have the same feelings... i guess its normal lol

delino

AngnShaun:

I have the same feelings... i guess its normal lol

I guess we have to try to keep eachother focused!

4legsRbest

OMG - I can't even decide how I feel half the time! I was getting so overwhelmed when I was trying to order my meds, figure out my travel for work, etc. I made a list of the battles (steps) that needed to be won in order to conquer it (I talk about IF like it is a war). I like it because I have my whole long list in front of me but I can tell myself to JUST focus on the next one when getting anxious. My eyes do wonder, taking it all in, but it has been helpful to be able to focus all my energy on one thing at a time. For example, I really, really hope I have something to freeze, but the next step is for the ET to go well, so I just put all my energy there and worry about that step later. No sense in worrying about a milestone if I never get there, right?

I do sign my books from time-to-time - Ack, that was long!

delino

I do the same thing 4legs.  Not quite in list form, but I try to just focus on the next task.  My problem is that I always think 5 steps ahead...that's just the way I am.  Today I was thinking and worrying about the progesterone injections.  Seriously....this isn't a concern until the end of May!

4legsRbest

delino:

I do the same thing 4legs.  Not quite in list form, but I try to just focus on the next task.  My problem is that I always think 5 steps ahead...that's just the way I am.  Today I was thinking and worrying about the progesterone injections.  Seriously....this isn't a concern until the end of May!

I make a list for everything, just my way of dealing with stuff The good news though if you are thinking that far ahead, you are in good spirits! And yuck on prog injs - I think that is probably the worst of the shots.

delino

4legsRbest:

delino:

I do the same thing 4legs.  Not quite in list form, but I try to just focus on the next task.  My problem is that I always think 5 steps ahead...that's just the way I am.  Today I was thinking and worrying about the progesterone injections.  Seriously....this isn't a concern until the end of May!

I make a list for everything, just my way of dealing with stuff The good news though if you are thinking that far ahead, you are in good spirits! And yuck on prog injs - I think that is probably the worst of the shots.

That's why I was worrying about them!

kmc84

I hope so! On the way to ET I was literally squealing with excitement. On the way home I was afraid about hitting a pothole, laughing,  sneezing, coughing, you name it! I was getting over a cold at the time and I had been coughing a lot and I was genuinely concerned about it!  When we left my nurse had to promise me that I wouldn't cough out my embies:-) 

kaf7

I feel this way multiple times each day. DH seems to just be on excitement side of things and that's not so helpful. Right now I am more panic than excited. Hopefully it flips again in the near future.

LeoLauren

delino:

4legsRbest:

delino:

I do the same thing 4legs.  Not quite in list form, but I try to just focus on the next task.  My problem is that I always think 5 steps ahead...that's just the way I am.  Today I was thinking and worrying about the progesterone injections.  Seriously....this isn't a concern until the end of May!

I make a list for everything, just my way of dealing with stuff The good news though if you are thinking that far ahead, you are in good spirits! And yuck on prog injs - I think that is probably the worst of the shots.

That's why I was worrying about them!

The start of IVF offers so much hope and promise! I can't wait to start again. It was the first time in a while i wasn't so depressed all the time. It's like you're finally in control of something!

I looked at the PIO needles when i got my pkg of meds dreading them but actually, i found them to be the easiest. The menopur hurt so much i would sometimes cry. After that, PIO was nothing. I heated my tush with a hot pad before hand and it was totally ok. 

Whales124

delino:

I do the same thing 4legs.  Not quite in list form, but I try to just focus on the next task.  My problem is that I always think 5 steps ahead...that's just the way I am.  Today I was thinking and worrying about the progesterone injections.  Seriously....this isn't a concern until the end of May!

This exactly!  I used to call it planning ahead, but now with IF involved it has just turned into chronic worrying.  I can't decide if I'm scared, happy, excited, sad - ugh, or all of it at once.  I am trying more visualizing techniques to live in the moment, or at least the day.  Not sure if it will work, but I'll try anything.  I'm doing my 2nd IVF in May, would love someone to focus with!

AmCheri

Ahhh, yes. A day in the life of an IF gal. I know it well. Totally normal sweets.  I guess I try to take it a step at a time. And I find periodic perspective checks are helpful. When I'm down and freaking out about IF stuff, I try to think about all of the ways we're blessed. A daily gratitude journal is an easy way to try to stay grounded. 

cnv1237

4legsRbest:

OMG - I can't even decide how I feel half the time! I was getting so overwhelmed when I was trying to order my meds, figure out my travel for work, etc. I made a list of the battles (steps) that needed to be won in order to conquer it (I talk about IF like it is a war). I like it because I have my whole long list in front of me but I can tell myself to JUST focus on the next one when getting anxious. My eyes do wonder, taking it all in, but it has been helpful to be able to focus all my energy on one thing at a time. For example, I really, really hope I have something to freeze, but the next step is for the ET to go well, so I just put all my energy there and worry about that step later. No sense in worrying about a milestone if I never get there, right?

I do sign my books from time-to-time - Ack, that was long!

 

This is just like me!  Lists for everything.  I ad at least 5 alarms when I was stimming and now I have 3 for mt progesterone....it's overwhelming, like you delino, I'm 5 steps ahead and I "what if" my husband to death with my over active planning.  So that said, yes it's normal!  Good luck to you.  

delino

AmCheri:

Ahhh, yes. A day in the life of an IF gal. I know it well. Totally normal sweets.  I guess I try to take it a step at a time. And I find periodic perspective checks are helpful. When I'm down and freaking out about IF stuff, I try to think about all of the ways we're blessed. A daily gratitude journal is an easy way to try to stay grounded. 

I love the idea of a gratitude journal! Thank you!

delino

Whales124:

delino:

I do the same thing 4legs.  Not quite in list form, but I try to just focus on the next task.  My problem is that I always think 5 steps ahead...that's just the way I am.  Today I was thinking and worrying about the progesterone injections.  Seriously....this isn't a concern until the end of May!

This exactly!  I used to call it planning ahead, but now with IF involved it has just turned into chronic worrying.  I can't decide if I'm scared, happy, excited, sad - ugh, or all of it at once.  I am trying more visualizing techniques to live in the moment, or at least the day.  Not sure if it will work, but I'll try anything.  I'm doing my 2nd IVF in May, would love someone to focus with!

Focus buddy you want, Focus Buddy you got! Call me whenever you need a refocusing.