*hugs* We all know how hard this is.
The worst part for me....my bbs were so much smaller afterwards. As if I didn't have a million reasons to hate myself....just one more thing to avoid when I look in the mirror.
I sobbed when mine dried up.
I pumped for a month and donated and my last time pumping was awful. It was my last connection to Aidan of something I did for him/in his name.