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**<<Farmerlynda>>**
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Hi there. Just saw your note below to sarahtoledo. I must have missed your beta #2 update. I'm so sorry you're suffering through nightmare betas. I never thought much could be more painful and stressful than an IVF cycle itself. Then I was introduced to beta hell and found out how wrong I was. My thoughts and prayers are with you sweetie. I hope you get good news soon!!! We're pulling for you. BIG hugs.
Baby girl Lila born 2013.
Baby boy Henry born 2015.
Expecting our capstone baby (boy) early March 2018.
Baby boy Henry born 2015.
Expecting our capstone baby (boy) early March 2018.
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Re: **&lt;&lt;Farmerlynda&gt;&gt;**
Thanks so much, ladies. I also had no idea how hard this would be... way worse than my IVF BFN. Because at least then I knew. DH is still hopeful but I'm having a hard time being that way. I am just so worried that it's over, except not over, and I won't be able to try again for a while because of that... And that I've come so far only to have it taken away from me before it even started. What is wrong with this world where women leave babies in dumpsters and all we want is a child?!
But, anyway, I guess I won't know until Monday. And even then I might not know! Thanks for thinking of me. I'll keep you posted!
Severe MFI. Me: supposedly all clear but eggs showed vacuoles.
IVF #1 January 2012, ER Jan 14th: 34R, 27M, 23F. Day 3: 18 embies still strong. Day 5: zero "good," one "fair," the rest "poor." Transferred 3. None made it to blast or to freeze. Jan 28: BFN.
Lucky IVF #2: Transferred two beautiful day three embies on St. Patrick's Day. BFP on HPT 7dp3dt. Beta 1 (14dpER)=106; Beta 2 (16dpER)=140; Beta 3 (19dpER)=264! First u/s 4.17.
Hope is the thing with feathers - that perches in the soul - and sings the tune without the words - and never stops - at all - (Emily Dickinson)
TTC #1 since 3/2011
DX: anovulatory and severe MFI
DH is a testicular cancer survivor
IVF#1 w/ICSI lupron, gonal f, ovidrel
ER 6/15/12 6R 6M 6F! ET 6/20/12
Beta #1: 154 Beta #2: 509 Beta #3: 7326
Baby Boy born 3/1/2013
TTC#2: 6/2014 all testing came back normal
IVF#2 (#1 for LO#2) 9/2014 - 17R 10M 10F 4 blasts frozen on day 6.
FET #1 10/15/14 - Beta #1: 216 Beta #2: 823
Baby Boy born 7/10/2015
::sneaks in for extra hugs::
(((((((((((((LYNDA AND BEBE(S) LYNDA!!!!!!)))))))))))))
TTC #1 since 3/10:
DX: Me-PCOS, retroverted/ tilted ute - DH- MFI, DH-4 mo of Clomid therapy= no improvement. Weekly HCG injections.
Me-34, DH-33
HSG- unsuccessful, SHSG (dialated)-no blockages
7/11-Clomid (unmonitored) BFN,
#1 Fresh IVF 9/11: w/ ICSI & AH (only option): (1 transfered, 8BF) = BFN!!
#2 FET: 2 transferred (2 6BF) 12/11 = BFFN!!
Surprise + HPT on break! 2/12 Beta 1: 6 Beta 2: <5 = c/p ( RE had given me provera... So pretty sure this ruined everything)<BR> #3 Fresh IVF 3/12: w/ ICSI & AH (2 transfered 8BF & 7BF, 1 to freeze) = BFMFN!
New RE 5/12
6/14 Hysteroscopy
#4 Fresh IVF 8/12: 5dt of 2 5AB blasts = BFN!... what else is new?!?
New RE insists its a transfer issue, immunology checked & good
#5 IVF FET 1/13 under anesthesia : Two 5 day blasts transferred
+ HPT!! Beta1: 2315 Beta2: 6442 Beta3: 31,061
First u/s 1/30/13: Shows 1 healthy heartbeat!!
Was he was right? I wasted 4 IVF's and the doctors were not getting the catheter in?!?
~~ Bump Bestie/ IRL Lynn0926 ~~
There isn't a step in this process that is easy, and it is just unfair that you just cant enjoy being finally pregnant. I am angry on your behalf.
This will me a mega long day today, and an even longer morning tomorrow. Keep singing songs to your little chickpea, and we will all keep sending all the vibes in the world.... we are all pulling for you. Lean on the sunshine of your husband, and he will pull you through. XOXO
TTC#1 since October 2010
"The jump is so frightening between where I am and where I want to be...because of all I may become I will close my eyes and leap." Mary Anne Radmacher
Me:35, 5 major abdominal surgeries for Ulcerative colitis, failed j pouch, perm. Ileostomy DX-DOR & Tubal abnormalities/Extensive Adhesions from earlier surgeries.latest fsh -26
IVF 1- March 2012 Antagonist Protocol; BCP until March 3; AFC this cycle is 10 (Hooray); Start stims on March 9; ER on March 19- 2R; 2T (1 perfect 8 cell, 1 scrappy 3 cell); tubal infection from ER-hospitalized. Doomed! BFN
Essure Procedure to treat bilateral hydrosalpinx; June 2012, wait 3 months for confirmation test.
IVF2 (Egg Banking)-letrozole/antagonist cycle; June/July 2012 225iu merional + cetrotide; slow responder, Ovulated before ER. Unbelievable. Canceled remaining cycles with my eggs
DE IVF in Brno, Czech. Approx. ET on Oct 6 CANCELLED-Essure didn't close both tubes-test again in 3 months
IVF3-DE IVF ET on Dec 9, 2012 (decided to roll the dice no matter what!)
2 perfect HB transferred; 8dp5dt beta:36; 10dp5dt beta 15; chemical pregnancy.
Turning our hearts toward adoption
DH:36, SA-perfect
Married since July 11, 2009
Fur baby Cairn Terrier
SAIF/PAIF Welcome
Love this! So true. My hubby was the only person in the world I wanted to be with when we were in the midst of our own helll.
Thinking of you today sweets. If it's possible, try to do something special for yourself. You may not be interested, you may think you won't enjoy it, but try. You are worth it and this is a terribly difficult time. Do what you can to make it through. Hugs.
Baby boy Henry born 2015.
Expecting our capstone baby (boy) early March 2018.
Sweetie, I can't even describe how sorry I am. I am hoping that this is a vanishing twin, that perhaps betas for both your babies were low and one is leaving you but the other is still growing strong. Many hugs to you hun.
TTC since March/April 2010
DX: MFI - less than 1 million sperm, 26% motility
DH put on anastrozole to increase counts
June/July 2011 100 mg Clomid + TS IUI#1 & IUI 2 - BFN :-(
Forced break due to DH getting spinal surgery in August 2011
IVF - January 2012: BFN
FET in April 2012 - BFP at 6dp5dt! Beta #1 at 9dp5dt: 82.5, Beta #2 at 12dp5dt: 352 Beta #3 at 19dp5dt: 6000, saw heartbeat and one little bean at 5W6D!
After nearly 3 years of waiting our LO was born December 18th 2012!
I'm so sorry you are in limbo. Try to stay positive and I'll be sending t&p your way!
TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46
DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE
DE IVF #3 1/14 ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d
DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!!
First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!
K & K born 11/21/14 at 38wks 4 days
SAIF/PAIF Welcome
http://waitingforraintostop.wordpress.com
Not much to add to what others have already said...but, I definitely agree with the suggestion to lean on YH. Like AmCheri, MH was the only person I really wanted to be around when dealing with the crazy betas and certainly the only one (other than you amazing ladies here) that I could stomach conversing with about it all.
You've most definitely been in my thoughts -- this is something that I would never want another person to have to go through, especially after all that each of us has already been through. (((Major Hugs))) continuing your way, sweetie!!!
Me: 39, Dx DOR (FSH = 10.5, AMH = 0.43, best AFC = 10), AMA
MH: 37, Dx Obstructive Azoospermia, multiple successful sperm retrieval procedures
2/2012: IVF/ICSI #2 MDLF (4R, 4M, 1F) = BFP, saw heartbeat, missed m/c 9w0d, D&E
8/2012: IVF/ICSI #3 EPP/MDLF (7R, 2M, 1F) = BFN
12/2012: (New RE) Operative hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue
1/2013: IVF/ICSI #4 Low-dose stim/Antagonist (AFC=6); ER=1/26 (5R-couldn't access rt ovary, 5M, 4F), ET=1/29 (trans 3) = BFP!; 2/11 beta#1(13dp3dt)=2127, 2/13=3367; twin girls due 10/19/13
PAIF/SAIF very welcome!
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15 treatment cycles: four early m/c
Moving forward with domestic infant adoption!
Home study approved 5/13, now just waiting...