It just hit me

naflmj

I think it's finally setting in that we will have 2 babies at home in the next 8 weeks or so and I am TERRIFIED! I know this is normal but I just have no idea how I am going to manage the needs of my very attached toddler and two newborns. I am scared that I am runing his life and he will never forgive me and that my sweet little boy is going to turn into a terror. I am so scared that I won't be able to nurse two babies and give enough love to 3 little ones. And, as much as I am OK with working, I am resenting DH for not making enough money to let me stay home through January to establish a better routine, milk supply, and feel more comfortable with leaving them all(I know this is terrible...he works hard and his industry is hurting so it's not his fault and it is completly irrational and unfair of me to feel like this). And now I am sitting at work about to lose it so I'll stop rambling. Any words of advice to make the adjustment "easier" for our expanding family would be very welcome.

Kristi1971

Omgoodness all these feelings are so normal!  I have only been back to work a few weeks now, and I get angry about it.  It's just not right that we have to be back to work so quickly.  I truly wish my husband made enough to allow me to be home longer, too.  Especially since he works out of town so much that I feel like a single parent with twins.

I remember feeling terrified throughout my pregnancy.  Everything feels so big.  But I will say this - once you are in it and living it, you don't have time for those terrified feelings.  The anger for me only kicked in when I had to come back to work.  The first couple of weeks were really hard for me.  Last week was not so bad.  This week has been more of a yo-yo. I think it will get better, though. 

HUGS.

We can do it! 

 

 

 

ShopperKristi

Oh my goodness!  I'm only 15 weeks with my twins so I haven't hit that 'reality check moment' yet - but I'm sure I will when I am as close as you!  Can't offer you much in the way of advice but just know that you are a wonderful mama for your LO and you will be a wonderful mama to three when the time comes!  You just do the best you can and that will absolutely be good enough for all of your babies!  I think what you're feeling is totally normal so don't beat yourself up about being 'irrational' or 'unfair' - you'll find a way to make it all work even though it might be hard sometimes.  Have you lined up help for after the babies come?  Maybe that would put your mind at ease a little bit.

benz2010

Trust me I completely understand! I can't get off the couch/recliner and my DD keeps saying play with me mommy, breaks my heart. I feel like I'm robbing her of something with bringing 2 babies into the house. She has so much personality and is freakishly smart so I know she will not fall to the shadow of her twin sisters, but everytime I think about having to say goodbye to her to go have babies I cry. She won't be my baby anymore and it breaks my heart!! I know its normal but it still just feels wrong!

HazelEyes730

I just wanted to say I feel the same way. I feel bad for DD now, because I can hardly do anything that requires too much activity on my part. I feel sad that she may be upset when the boys do come home. I'm lucky that she loves to play with anything and by herself too. I'm hoping the transition is easy for her and myself. I stay at home, so I'm freaking out about doing it all by myself. Worried about all the what ifs and not really knowing when the boys will be here. I just keep saying it will all work out and it will be so worth it. We can do it!

DenaRenee78

I can totally relate to how your feeling! I am not as far along as you and I think I am still in shock .. somewhat! I mean I know its happening but its all so overwhelming! I have four other kids at home and this pregnancy wasn't expected or planned ... in fact the opposite I was told I couldn't have anymore kids! So imagine my surprise when they say not only and I pregnant but with twins! I'm happy and know I will love these babies .. but it is scary at times too! 

I'm sure you will be a wonderful mother and you will work out a routine that works for you all    Good luck!