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Tomorrow... (PIP Iv'e never shared)

vanessa lynnevanessa lynne member
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Tomorrow is Aidan's 1st Birthday.  I still can't believe it is almost here.  Today I looked at my self in the mirror and thought I looked rather skinny.  When my Mom arrived at my house she said.. "Wow..you really look like you've lost weight"  I broke out in tears..Of course I want to look good and lose the lbs I've gained since Aidan..but the thought that last year today I had a big beautiful belly really hit me. I miss him so much.  Some days I feel guilty for wanting to be pg again.  I just really want to be able to hold one of Aidan's brothers or sisters..bring them home and have a part if him.  I am still waiting to surge on my opk so I can call the RE for my IUI the following day.  I was sure it would happen today and I would be in there for the IUI on his birthday. So far...no + But I haven't tested again today yet.  I will need all the good thoughts and prayers you wonderful ladies can gather for Mikey and I tomorrow..I really don't know how we will get through the day.  I love you all...and thank God everyday that I have a safe place to come and talk with other girls who truly understand.  ((HUGS))

 

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  • ct103ct103 member
    Aiden is absolutely beautiful. I am so sorry for your loss. Many T&P's for you tomorrow. You will definitely be on my mind, and in my heart. Lots of love.
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  • Allycat11Allycat11 member
    (((HUGS)))  Thank you for sharing the photos that I am sure are very personal for you.  I'll be sending extra prayers for you.
    11/2010 Diagnosed with PCOS 
    10/31/11 M/C at 9 weeks
    1/12/13 DD was born
    4/9/16 DS was born 
    9/17 CP 
    6/23/18 BFP EDD 3/4/19 

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  • ChevelleRiversChevelleRivers member
    Such a beautiful baby. My prayers are with you.
    Me (25) DH (33) BFP #1 on cycle #4: 2/7/12 - M/C 2/26/12 BFP #2 on cycle #1: 4/3/12 - DD born 12/18/12
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  • VikingQueenVikingQueen member
    ((huge huge hugs)) I will be thinking of you tomorrow and sending many good thoughts and vibes babe. You know where to find me if you need to talk. I'm always here for you. I love you sweetie. I know Shi and Aidan are up in heaven playing together and celebrating their first birthdays. Thank you for sharing your precious angel with us. He is so lucky to have a wonderful mommy such as you.
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  • Ironmom2beIronmom2be member

    I'll be thinking of you tomorrow, I remember you from right after your loss (I was also going through my 1st loss at that time) I hope you guys find the strength to get through tomorrow, allow yourself to grieve it's totally normal and expected. 

    I also wish you hope for your upcoming IUI.

    I'll think of you tomorrow ((hugs)) 

    btw, Aiden is so beautiful, thanks for sharing his photo. 

    TTC#1 
    BFP 2/14/11, missed m/c 9 weeks. d&e 3/24/11
    BFP 12/10/11 d&e at 13wk+4days 2/17/12
    Dx with Balanced Robertsonian Translocation (13;14) moving on to IVF w/ PGD
    IVF #1 (May 2012) 13R, 10F, 5 blasts, ONE NORMAL frozen no transfer
    IVF #2 (July 2012) 17R, 8F, 5  blasts, ONE NORMAL 6dt on 7/12/2012- c/p
    IVF #3 (Sept. 2012) 39R, 25F, 13 blasts,  3 NORMALS! Freeze-all due to high E2.
    FET #1 10/23- 2 expanded blasts, Beta #1 11/1- 113, Beta #2 11/4-351, Beta #3 11/7- 1213
    Hailey Michelle born July 12, 2013

    TTC #2 
    FET -1/14- c/p
    IVF #4 (Feb 2014)- 49R, 28F, 13 blasts, 7 NORMALS! eSET of a normal blast on 2/24/14, 6 frosties.
    Beta #1 3/4/14- 105. Beta #2 3/7/13- 397 EDD-11/11/14. 1st u/s 3/20- 6w2d lil' bean with 120hb. 7w0d- lil bean's hb was 144. Graduated from RE 3/25/14.
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  • CNYBride05CNYBride05 member
    You are amazing, beautiful, and strong.  Huge (((hugs))) for you and DH today, tomorrow, and always.  I hope you are able to find peace and take good care of yourself.  FX for you +OPK and a successful IUI!
    Natural m/c Oct. 2005

    Dx: balanced translocation and LPD

    TTC since Oct 2011

    BPF 02/19/12, EDD 10/31/12, natural m/c 02/28/12 (4w6d)

    IVF (BCPs starting 10/30/12, ER 11/18/12, 5dt of 1 beautiful, healthy embryo 11/23/12)
    BFP 12/02/12, u/s @ 6w,5d showed 2 HBs! Identical twins!!
    Bed rest from 21w-35w due to short cervix, hospital bed rest from 23w-32w due to PTL
    Our rainbows were born 07/19/13 (36w, 5d)

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  • MrsLeleMrsLele member
    What beautiful photos. I'm so sorry for your loss, extra prayers to you during these difficult days.


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  • GatorBaby2012GatorBaby2012
    Oh honey! (((HUGE HUGS))) I'll be thinking of you tomorrow. Beautiful photos!
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  • 4legsRbest4legsRbest member

    What a beautiful boy!! Thank you so much for sharing with us. I am sending tons LH surge and O dust your way! You will hold one of Aidan's siblings soon and you will see his sweet face in theirs. Big, huge (((hugs))) to you!

    Me: 37 DH: 40 TTC since 9/09
    #1 BFP 1/10/11; missed m/c discovered 7w5d
    IF Dx: Endo, hetero MTHFR mutation, poor morphology
    #1 IUI: 1/18/12 = BFN
    #1 IVF/ICSI 4/2/12 = 2 x 7-cell and 1 x 5-cell transferred (3dt) = BFP!!
    H was born at 41w2d on 12/29/12 - be still my heart!
    #2 IVF/ICSI 1/19/14 = 2 x 8 cells transferred (3dt) = BFP!! EDD 10/09/14
    M&W born at 37 weeks on 9/18/14 - I am the momma of 3 boys!!!

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  • delinodelino member
    Aidan is absolutely precious.  I will be thinking of you all tomorrow.  <3
    3 ectopic pregnancies (EDD's 1/30/12-tube removed, 6/2/12-methotrexate and 10/2/12-methotrexate)
    IVF and Natural FET resulted in BFN's and a hole in our wallets
    Natural BFP #4 on 9/7/12 gave us our miracle on 5/18/13
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  • MandaJo9MandaJo9 member
    He looks so precious in the photos.  I'll be thinking of you and your family.  Thank you for sharing.
    BFP#1: 9.16.08 DD: 5.28.09
    BFP#2: 7.10.11 MMC: 8.3.11 D&C: 8.29.11
    BFP#3: 12.5.11 MC: 12.22.11
    BFP#4: 2.14.12 MMC: 3.8.12 D&C: 3.13.12 Loss due to Trisomy 16
    BFP#5: 6.11.12 MC: 6.28.12 Loss due to Triploidy
    RPL BW, Sonohystogram, Chromosome testing on DH and myself = everything is normal
    BFP#6: 12.4.12 EDD: 8.16.13
    Things I did different with this pregnancy:
    1. Waited TTC until after I had 3 normal menstrual cycles.
    2. Got a new OB - amazing man who listened!
    3. 200 mg progesterone until 12 weeks
    4. Daily lovenox injections
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  • MAtoNCMAtoNC member
    Thank you for sharing your sweet boy, Aiden with us. I will be thinking of the three of you tomorrow. 
    Married 4/12/08 DS born 11/17/2009 via c-section at 39 weeks. 11/12/2011 BFP #2!! m/c 7w5d. 2/28/2012 BFP #3 Beta #1-12dpo = 18; Beta #2-16dpo = 185; Beta #3-18dpo = 505. EDD 11/10/2012. Ectopic discovered at 5w4d. D&C followed by methotrexate.
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  • KDS1987KDS1987 member
    Thank you for sharing your beautiful pictures, what a sweet baby boy. I will be sending you tons of hugs and prayers tomorrow and wish you the best of luck with your upcoming IUI.
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  • kpowers982kpowers982 member
    I'm very sorry to hear you are having a hard time.  Wishing you peace and comfort! We're here for you.
    Cycle 7: BFP 1-17-12, Missed Miscarriage at 8w6d (measured 7w2d, no HB), D&C 2-29-12
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  • KGS2003KGS2003 member

    Thank you for sharing your beautiful boy with us. It's an honor.

    You will be in my T&Ps tomorrow. Much strength and peace to you on Aidan's 1st birthday. 

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  • jenn0021jenn0021 member
    Aidan is beautiful, thank you for sharing those pictures of him. Sending you giant ((hugs)) today and tomorrow. You have been on my mind so much lately.
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    BFP #1     07/04/10. EDD 03/14/11. Missed m/c 08/09/10. D&C 09/27/10. }Casey & Jaimie{
    BFP #2 01/14/11. EDD 09/25/11. Missed m/c 02/18/11. D&C 02/24/11. }Dustin{
    TTA for 18 months and then TTC for 12 months
    BFP #3 08/18/13. EDD 04/30/14. Missed m/c 09/25/13. D&C 09/26/13. }Daylin{
    TTA for 7 months
    Jan-Mar 2014 - RPL, SHG, karotyping: all results normal
    TTC Again May 2014
    Progesterone & baby aspirin combo for 5 cycles     - All BFN's
    SA with DNA fragmentation = Perfect results
    Diagnostic cycle monitoring = Polycystic ovaries leading to premature egg release
    TTA Oct 2014 - Jan 2015
    Jan 2015 - Medicated cycle with timed intercourse
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  • MissuskeekersMissuskeekers member
    He is so beautiful. Those pictures are heartbreaking. I will keep you in my thoughts. Good luck with your iui!


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    Married 07/17/2010
    Diagnosed with PCOS 10/20/2010 
    TTC since Oct 2010 
    BFP #1 March 31st 2011 Due December 10 2011 
    Missed m/c discovered June 2nd 2011 at 12w4d
    D&C scheduled June 7th 2011 at 13w2d
    Found out our baby boy had Triploidy XXY through embryopathology
    BFP #2 September 28th 2011 Due June 8th 2012
    Missed m/c discovered November 20th 2011 at 11w2d
    D&C November 29th 2011 at 12w4d
    Found out our baby girl had Monosomy X through embryopathology
    BFP #3 April 24th 2012 Due January 5th 2013
    Betas falling on 04/26/12 Chemical Pregnancy
    RPL testing done, multi nodular goiters on thyroid discovered.

    BFP #4 November 22nd 2012, Due August 5th 2013
    Betas: 17 @ 9dpo, 62 @ 11dpo, 124 @ 12dpo, 321 @ 14dpo 720 @ 16dpo 13,805 @ 23 dpo 
    First ultrasound at 6w3d, hb 122 bpm. 
    Second ultrasound at 7w3d hb 143 bpm 
    Third ultrasound at 10w1d hb 167-170 bpm 
    Forth ultrasound 12w1d hb 167 bpm 
    Graduated rpl program, moving on to regular ob! 
    It's a boy! 

    Little man was born August 1st 2013, 7lbs 8oz and 20.5 inches long



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  • chrisleathchrisleath member
    My heart just broke for you.  I am so sorry.  I will be thinking of you tomorrow..
    BFP#1 10/24/11 ~ EDD 6/27/12 ~ m/c 11/15/11 BO
    BFP#2 6/10/12 ~ EDD 2/21/13 ~ mm/c 7/12/12 ~ D&C 7/13/12
    BFP#3 2/23/2013 ~ EDD 11/5/13 Beta#1 125, Beta#2 436, Beta#3 ???
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  • ErinE683ErinE683 member
    What a beautiful baby. Sending T & P your way, and I really hope Aiden has a sibling for you to hold before you know it!
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  • jerryliljessjerryliljess member
    Aidan looks absolutely beautiful!  I'll be thinking of you and Mike tomorrow and hop that you do something wonderful in honor of your son.  ((BIG HUGS))
    5/16/2005: M/C at 7 wks
    5/3/2010: MM/C at 7 wks 6 days
    5/25/2014: CP at 4 wks 3 days

    Because of the great "Snow"vember of 2015, my medicated cycle was cancelled.  However, we were blessed with our little rainbow baby due on 8/14/15!  Baby J had other plans and decided to make his grand ole entrance on 7/4/2015!

    Surprise!  Our little girl entered this world on 12/8/2016 after her eviction notice was long past due.  Our little turkey baby turned into a snow baby!  

                                                        
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  • bribri81404bribri81404
    So many ((big squishy hugs)) and love coming to you and Mikey tomorrow! Aiden is so beautiful! Prayers for strength and peace for you and your family! You and Mikey will be in my thoughts tomorrow. Happy birthday Aiden! 
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  • Mom2anAngel2Mom2anAngel2 member
    What a beautiful picture.  You will be in  my T&P's tomorrow.

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    BFP #1: 8/4/11; DS1 born sleeping on 11/16/11 at 19w1d

    BFP # 2: 5/7/12, EDD 1/10/13, DS2 born 1/4/13

    BFP # 3: 11/8/13, EDD 7/17/14, mmc 10wks

    BFP # 4: 5/16/14, EDD 1/15/15, praying for our 2nd rainbow baby 

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  • jinxycat24jinxycat24

    Thank you for sharing these amazing pictures. Aiden is just beautiful. I will be thinking of you and your DH tomorrow and sending you strength. Try not to feel guilty about wanting to be pg again Aiden knows you love him always and nothing will ever change that.

    I hope you get a + on your OPK tonight.

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  • blessedhopeblessedhope member
    Aidan is so beautiful. Thankyou for sharing the pictures. Many big hugs to you.
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  • Bizzy80Bizzy80 member
    What a sweet beautiful baby boy.  Thank you for sharing your pictures.  My thoughts and prayers will be with you tomorrow.
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  • FreyaWin2382FreyaWin2382 member

    (((HUGS))) to you.

    And thank you so much for sharing these beautiful pictures of your angel baby. 

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  • KacyChicagoKacyChicago member

    Happy first birthday to Aidan ... I am so sorry that it's going to be a tough day for you and your husband. But I hope above anything that you're able to do the IUI, so fingers crossed that happens.

    He is absolutely beautiful, and I appreciate you sharing those with us. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

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    We lost our first (EDD 07/23/12) after finding out at 12 weeks there was no longer a heartbeat. Our rainbow was born 05/22/13 and was worth all we went through.

    “So can you understand? Why I want a daughter while I’m still young? I wanna hold her hand and show her some beauty before all this damage is done. But if it’s too much to ask, it’s too much to ask … Then send me a son.” – Arcade Fire
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  • panacea05panacea05 member
    Tears are rolling down my face right now. Thank you so much for sharing these photos of your precious Aidan with us.

    You and Mikey hold each other close tomorrow as you remember your beautiful boy. Be good to yourselves. So many ((hugs)) and prayers for you both as you make it through tomorrow. 
    It was a rough road, but Arlo Daniel was born April 1, 2013—and our second rainbow is due October 12, 2014.
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  • buckeyebaby814buckeyebaby814 member
    ::HUGS::

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  • Mrs CarboMrs Carbo member
    The strength of the women on this board never ceases to amaze me. You are so incredibly strong and Aiden is beautiful beyond words. Lots of love and hugs for tomorrow.
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  • LaTi07LaTi07 member
    Aidan is beautiful!! T&P's to you! (Hugs)

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    ♥BFP #2 "Offspring"- 11/10/12 | EDD: 07/25/13 | incomplete m/c 12/14/12 @8w1d | D&C 12/21/12♥
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  • smcjmk09smcjmk09 member
    This filled me up with tears for you.  I'm so sorry.  What a precious little boy.  I hope you are able to feel some sense of peace and healing tomorrow as you move through the day.  I know it will be difficult... know that we will all be thinking of you.
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  • shanrobshanrob member
    Aiden is gorgeous and lucky to have you as his mommy.  It will be a tough day, but you'll get through it.  Thanks for sharing pictures of your beautiful little boy. {HUGS}
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  • lau1021lau1021 member

    These pictures are beautiful. I am sorry for the loss of your precious Aidan. I will be thinking of you tomorrow ((((hugs)))))

    BFP #1 - 10/10/11, 1st U/S 12/5/11 @ 8w, BO discovered, d&c 12/9/11. HCG @ 0 - 1/4/11.
    BFP #2 - 04/04/12, 1st Beta @ 9DPO 19, 2nd Beta @ 13 DPO 168. 1st u/s - 4/30/12 - we have a heartbeat!!
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  • KittyKatMomKittyKatMom member
    (((HUGS))) to you. Thank you for sharing.
    "My friends, love is better than anger. Hope is better than fear. Optimism is better than despair. So let us be loving, hopeful and optimistic. And we'll change the world." - Jack Layton

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  • orangegogglesorangegoggles member
    Aidan is a beautiful baby and your photos are amazing. I will be thinking of you and your husband tomorrow. Sending many thoughts and prayers. (((Hugs)))
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    BFP #2 7.23.11 ~ EDD 3.28.12 ~ MC on 8.16.11
    BFP #3 11.17.11~ EDD 7.31.12 ~ MC on 1.18.12
    BFP #4 4.12.12 ~ EDD 12.25.12~ Born on 12.26.12
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  • OSUJaydeeOSUJaydee member
    What a beautiful baby boy. T&Ps for you tomorrow.
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  • Sunrise6Sunrise6 member
    Aidan is such a beautiful and precious little boy!  (((hugs))) to you and your DH for Aidan's birthday tomorrow!  I'll be thinking of you tomorrow
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  • lavrillavril member

    Thank you for sharing those incredibly beautiful photos.  I will be sending tons of T&P your way tomorrow as you remember your precious angel. 

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    BFP #1 11.4.10, EDD 7.12.11, HB 12/9/10, MMC 12/27/10; 11w6d
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