Went back to work yesterday :-(

mrsacp

Yesterday was the hardest day of my life!!!  My DD was left with her nanny at her house and I went back to work.  What is worse is I work an hour and a half away, so DH takes her there and picks her up so I spend less time with her.  I HATE working now that I'm a mom.  Wishing I could stay home with my DD

jenuine

Hang in there. It definitely gets better. You will get a rhythm and things will be natural soon. But those first weeks are rough. Get take out. Let the dishes pile up or better yet, eat off paper plates. Don't worry about laundry. Just get through it.

Try to focus on the positive - good things that come out of your job like money, benefits, adult interactions, peeing in peace, etc - rather than the negitive. Your DD will pick up on your negitive energy. 

And focus on the quality of time with your DD rather than the quantity. The quantity will go up as your DD sleeps less, but in the meantime, the waking hours you have with her should be 100% focused on her. No dishes, phone, laundry... Just you and your LO. Even if it's just sacking out on the couch.

Having said that, can you look for a job closer to home or home closer to work? I did your 3 hour round trip commute for DD's first 3+ years and it sucked the life out of me. I am a whole new person since I moved. I wouldn't wish my long commute on anyone.

Hang in there. It will get better.