My husband and I found out we were pregnant with our first last Friday. 1 week ago today. We were so happy, thrilled, surprised! We had decided not to tell anybody until after our first doc appt, which was supposed to be today. On Tuesday night, at exactly 5 weeks, I noticed a little brown when I wiped. Everything I read reassured me, but I still called the doc first thing Wed. morning. They reassured me more, but I had a sinking feeling something was wrong. My boobs, which were hurting me even when I walked down the hall, were hardly even tender throughout the day. By the time I got home Wed. night, the brown had turned to pink, and finally red. I knew what was happening. Then, I had to spend Thursday morning getting a vaginal u/s and full exam, knowing good and well there was nothing that could be done. Luckily, my husband has been just perfect, but it's just so hard. We knew this could be a possibility, but never thought it would be this hard. My boss just told everybody I was "sick" and I'm so not looking forward to Monday. I don't want to see anyone, talk to anyone, do anything. This is truly awful.
Re: When does this get easier?
BFP#1 10/1/2011. Our perfect little girl, Her heart stopped @ 12w1d. D&E 11/23/11
BFP#2 3/13/12 Weird CP/Possible EP @ 6w0d
BFP#3 5/28/12 CP @ 5w0d
BFP/WTF#4 10/26/12 CP
BFP#5 12/10/12 EDD 8/23/2013
Baby Boy Born 8/22/13
Ive now today actually had a D&C for my third MC. This time around was slightly eaiser for me, due to the fact that I was trying not to get excited abought this pregnancy, and that helped, but I know the next time I get that positive, I will be a mess for a while! Its so beyond Frustrating, and I get waves of sadness and I get Angry or mad at others who I dont feel deserve a baby.
This week at work for me was rough the big time bleeding started 2 days before my scheduled D&C so I called out of work yesterday, but my co workers are such jerks, I know they are talking crap about me taking off work for 6 days including my two off days when we are so short staffed. That part is the hardest, I dont want to go back to work on wed and look at them, they have no I deat what Im going through and I just hurts that people can be so mean. I hope your co workers arent the same type of people that I directly work with. I hope your pain wasnt too great, and that you start to heal. but like the other ladies said, take it day by day and dont be suprisex if you get waves of random tears... you lost some one, and nit just some one your baby! its a big deal! in my opinion!!!
I'm so sorry for your loss.
It has been 5 weeks since I found out my baby wasn't developing, and 2 weeks since I miscarried. It is just in the last few days that I have stopped crying myself to sleep and tearing up whenever I think about the baby. I spent the first week after I found out holed up at home not talking to anyone. I totally understand what you mean! It helped me to tell people what happened. I have only told a few people, which was really hard but did help me feel better. It felt so awful to go around pretending everything was normal, that it helped to have some people who understood and gave me the space to not act normal.
BFP #2 9/5/2012 -- Born 5/20/2013 -- Welcome, rainbow baby!
BFP #1 1/24/12 -- No HB 2/16/12 -- Misoprostol 3/10/12
I'm sorry for your loss.
I would say for me I was a wreck the first 2 weeks, 3rd week was a bit better but I was still overcome, then after that something clicked & I have felt emotionally stronger a little each day & like I was starting to feel like me again.
DD1 born 5/24/10.
Missed M/C at 14 wks Feb 2012.
DD2 born 5/14/13.
Missed M/C at 9 wks July 2015.
I am so sorry for your lost. I want to say it gets easier but it doesn't, some days you will begin to feel normal and then other days will feel like a ton of bricks have fallen on your chest. We had our D&C on Monday, so almost a week now. The best thing to do is make yourself happy, do things that you couldn't do when pregnant Don't go on facebook if all your friends are having babies (that's what I did)... something that I did find help a lot was coming on this website and talking to other people who are going through the same thing. It's crazy, everything I read and hear is that having a miscarriage happens a lot nowadays but no one talks about it and you feel so alone. However this website you are able to talk to people who feel what you're feeling and been through what you have been through. To me at least, it helps a lot.
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