I just wanted to say thank you for your post on pg>35. It means a lot to me. I wish so badly that you would join me over there. I hope you are doing ok. I noticed you haven't posted much since things with the egg whisperer didn't go so well. How is the job thing going? I have been praying for you and will continue to do so. I am frustrated for you and wish there was more I could do to make it better. Anyway, I wanted you to know that I think of you often and am hoping and praying you get your miracle. Please don't be a stranger.
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Thanks for thinking of me.
I am basically on hold with everything in life and there is really nothing I can do about it. My job is closing my dept. but we have to finish the work we have for the wind-down. The deal they gave me is for me to stay until the end of the year and then I get the severance package. If I leave before that, I don't get the package. Financially I would be an idiot to walk away from the package so I just can't do it. But that means I can't look for a new job until the fall and I can't spend $ on DE not knowing if I will be able to get a new job right away (if I did DE in the next few months and it worked, I'd be due next winter. No one is going to hire me at that point and we can't afford for me to not work). It just doesn't make sense to try IVF again with my OE either. So I am in limbo.
I'm trying to look at this in a positive light as I have hated this job for a long time but stayed for the $$. Now I have no choice in the matter so I'm hoping I will end up happier in the long run. I'm going to take this year easy as I will no longer working late or weekends. I'm also taking my 4 weeks vacation which I never did before because I couldn't make my billable hours if I did. Maybe the lack of stress from this job will create the golden egg and I'll get pg naturally, LOL!
In my heart, I think we will end up child-free and that's just the cards we were dealt. That's why I haven't been posting. I can't embrace new people to the board now who will ultimately become PG but still need to check on those of you that I know and adore until none of my old-timer friends are left.
TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46
DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE
DE IVF #3 1/14 ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d
DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!!
First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!
K & K born 11/21/14 at 38wks 4 days
SAIF/PAIF Welcome
http://waitingforraintostop.wordpress.com
Oh McIrish, I am so sorry. I totally understand how you need to take a step back. Hopefully the change in job situation and the regular hours and vacation will lead to a less stressed you and that will make your golden egg appear. I'm going to keep hoping & praying for that. Please take care of yourself and keep checking on me, I need all the cheerleaders I can get! ((HUGS)).
I hope you ladies don't mind me butting in....
McIrish, I miss seeing you (and your smiling kitties) on our board! It just isn't the same without you, although I understand. I wish we really did have the real-life child-free suburb that was once mentioned on here, where we could drink cocktails while passing our evenings without the stresses of IF.
I am glad that you will get to take your vacation time. Whatever happened to the trip to Punta Cana? If that isn't in the cards because of financial uncertainties, I hope you can at least put on a gold lame' bathing suit, get a drink, and spend your vacation time immersed in a reality tv marathon.
Thanks Owl. The Punta Cana trip still haunts me sadly. We couldn't take it as DH is still out on works comp. I had travel insurance so we go back the hotel $$ but I still have $1400 worth of plane tickets that I can't use in light of the current financial situation! I'm trying to not focus on when the vouchers expire. My vacation time instead will be going to the inlaws since they live on Cape Cod within walking distance of the beach and it's free!! Not ideal but at least there will be cocktails...
I still think my CF suburb idea is brilliant if I do say so myself!
TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46
DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE
DE IVF #3 1/14 ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d
DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!!
First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!
K & K born 11/21/14 at 38wks 4 days
SAIF/PAIF Welcome
http://waitingforraintostop.wordpress.com
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!