Admiting there is an issue....

Melzig76

I think that I have something going on. If it's PPA or PPD, I don't know for sure, but I have an appointment with an OB tomorrow. Unfortunately not my regular OB, but I figured it would be better to be seen sooner than later. I feel like I'm such a failure and am so embarrassed, & suspect that I had this with DS, it just wasn't enough to deal with. This is. It's so real & of course always seems to be at worse when DH is at work (he works nights). I just get so gosh darn overwhelmed,  I cry, I get so frustrated if I can't console DD, I get agitated easily, my mind races, and my ability to multi-task is shot. I hate taking DD/DH out of our house, with out DH, of fear that someone is going to hurt us.

I do feel better now that I have admitted that I need help with this and it isn't such an internal battle, I pray though that it brings results as it is very much taking a toll on not only DH and I but our whole house hold. My poor DH has been taking the grunt of my frustrations and I feel we are both at breaking points, when we should be enjoying our blessing, I love him so very much and am hateful at myself for taking our happy time from us.. My beautiful daughter & adorable son are a blessing to say the least, I hope that I am able to be the mommy they need and deserve.

Thank you to all of you ladies,your posts have helped me come to realize I'm not alone in this & made accept it a little easier.

cbmp06

Good for you for taking the step in admitting there is something going on and seeing your OB.  I can completely relate.  It is so much worse when DH is at work, and I feel guilty for feeling this way when I should be enjoying my little princess.  I don't feel like the mommy and wife that my DH and DD deserve at all.  You're not alone!  I hope you can get the help you need at your dr appt tomorrow, good luck!

Melzig76

cbmp06:

Good for you for taking the step in admitting there is something going on and seeing your OB.  I can completely relate.  It is so much worse when DH is at work, and I feel guilty for feeling this way when I should be enjoying my little princess.  I don't feel like the mommy and wife that my DH and DD deserve at all.  You're not alone!  I hope you can get the help you need at your dr appt tomorrow, good luck!

Thank you! I hope you feel better about yourself soon too!

frasey

Hey - Im feeling things similar to what you described. I hate feeling like I do, and I feel bad for my baby who deserves better than this.

I just went and talked to my fam doc last week. It was hard tho. The first person I talked to was my mom, who is an OB nurse and my dad is a fam doc too. They had some suggestions other than just medication, which was also recommended tho.

Melzig76

frasey:

Hey - Im feeling things similar to what you described. I hate feeling like I do, and I feel bad for my baby who deserves better than this.

I just went and talked to my fam doc last week. It was hard tho. The first person I talked to was my mom, who is an OB nurse and my dad is a fam doc too. They had some suggestions other than just medication, which was also recommended tho.

 

I'm sorry your there too.It was so hard to tell people, but almost releasing to do so at the same time.  I'm sure it was even harder to tell your family as medical professionals. Hang in there. 

jgal84

I know you posted this awhile ago, and I really hope that you are doing better. I have been searching for a cure for DD2's fussiness for the past couple of weeks. It never even dawned on me that the problem could also be ME. I am so ashamed at how I feel:  angry, irritable, mood swings, lack of wanting to take care of her, etc. I could have written your post myself. THANK YOU for making me feel like I'm not alone. THANK YOU for giving me the courage to call my OB's office and schedule an appointment. You have no idea how much your post has helped me. I hope that I can be the mom I really want to be to my two girls and the wife I really want to be to my husband.