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Beta 1

lawjjg522lawjjg522 member
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Is a big fat f...ing  negative.

I knew it.. I've had what were clearly menstrual cramps the past day or two..     my heart is broken.

 

I felt so terrible calling my mom and mother in law.  I was at work so i had to suck it up and only cry a little.  but  My mom was bawling and his mom was very close.  We probably wont try again until June or July.  We need to rebuild the funds and  just take a break from all of this..  it kills me to do that though.

 

I think the stress of my job had a lot to do with these transfers failing.  I hated it and it wasn't a positive environment.  I start  a new job at a credit union on monday so I'm hoping that will be a little easier on me then  working retail. 

one of my girls friends goin through IVF (which i didnt know until recently) got a positive today, So i want to congratulate her.. (I dont think she's on the boards. But still, Let's pray/ send baby juju her way that this is her take home baby)

Thanks for  all  of your support.  I'll  stick a round a little bit i'm sure. 

 and on the plus side.....  Arbys gave me free cheese sticks..  He must  have sensed i was having a bad day.

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  • Snarling FoxSnarling Fox member

    I'm so sorry - sending you huge hugs. IF really sucks big time. I hope your break gives you time to heal. With a new job, sounds like you're already on the right track. 

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  • luvbostonluvboston member
    So sorry good luck with the new job!
    6 m/c
    Anovulatory cycles, increased Synthroid Diagnosed Sep 2010
    Natural cycle Dec 2010 BFP M/C 6 1/2 Weeks, D&E Jan 2011
    1 Clomid/Ovidrel BFN May 2011
    Natural cycle Aug 2011 BFP M/C 4 Weeks
    1 IUI Sept 2011 BFP M/c 7 weeks
    Provera Dec 2011 BFP M/C 3 Weeks
    DQ ALPHA HLA MATCH, High NK Cells Diagnosed Dec 2011
    IVF March 2012 BFP m/c 4weeks 5 days (IL, Prednisone)
    IVF#2w/DS July 2012 MEGA FAILURE BFN (IL, Dexamethasone)
    Diagnosed No real HLA Match, DQ Beta Triad, High TNF, Low NK Cells
    Oct 2012 Natural Cycle m/c 4wks (Lovenox, Prednisone) 
    Went to Beer Center- high tnf, low lad, implantation failure
    Nov/Dec 2012 LIT Treatment
    Dec 12 Humira
    Jan 2013 BFP
    Humira,LIT,Prednisone, Lovenox, IVIG, Baby Aspirin
    Miracle Born August 2013 Premature

    Yours doesn't have to be a sad story


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  • LaLe09LaLe09 member
    I'm really sorry. BFN's just suck. :(

    DH: Severe MFI/Azoo Me: Compound heterozygous MTHFR
    IVF #1= m/c- methotrexate @6w2d
    FET #1= BFN
    IVF #2= m/c- D&C @8w5d
    IVF #3= Beta #1 9dp5dt= 252, Beta #2 11dp5dt= 417, Beta #3 17dp5dt= 4,952
    US #2 @ 7w2d= twins, baby B measuring behind
    US #3 @ 8w5d= Baby A doing well, no HR in baby B
    *S/PAIF always welcome* BabyFetus Ticker
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  • AmCheriAmCheri member

    I am so sorry. :(  You deserve so much more than free cheese sticks, though they don't hurt. I hope time flies to your next cycle. Big hugs.  

    Baby girl Lila born 2013.
    Baby boy Henry born 2015.
    Expecting our capstone baby (boy) early March 2018.
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  • marieinmonacomarieinmonaco
    I am so sorry. 
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  • LuvWIfootballLuvWIfootball member
    I'm sorry.

                          

    PAIFW/SAIFW

    DS1 born July 2002 (previous marriage).

    TTC since Oct 08. DH Dx w/testicular cancer March 09.
    MFI due to retrograde ejaculation/azoospermia.
    5/2 IVF #1 cancelled due to large follie.
    6/14 start Lupron for IVF #1.2. 6/22 start stims.
    7/4 ER and Biopsy.
    7/9 Transferred 2 (1-4BB and 1-3BB) embryos.  4 frosties.
    7/15 +HPT 6dp5dt. 7/18 Beta #1: 193. 7/20 Beta #2: 415.
    8/10 1st u/s - It's triplets!

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  • kmc84kmc84 member
    I'm so sorry! Good luck to your friend and yay for Arby's:-)
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    TTC# 1 since 5/10
    Me:34 Type 1 Diabetes, Ankylosing Spondylitis, Hypothyroid DH:35 Perfect
    DX: Unexplained IF
    Many IUI's with various meds all BFFN
    IVF #1 11/11 canceled due to OHSS
    IVF #2 Feb/March 2012 ET of 2 on day 3 4/7 BFP! 5/1 u/s blighted ovum
    IVF #3 July 2012 ET of 3 on day 3 7/24 BFP!
    Healthy baby girl born at 36w4d on 3/9/13
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    TTC #2
    IVF #4 May/June 2014 ER 6/4 18R 8M 8F ET 6/9 1 blast, 2 frosties
    Beta 6/18 BFFN

    FET of 2 blasts 7/24...BFP!
    Healthy baby girl born at 36w3d on 3/17/15

    TTC#3
    IVF #5 June 2018- PGS planned, no surviving embryos
    IVF #6 August 2018- ET of 2 on day 3 - Chemical pregnancy
    IVF #7 August 2019-....?
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  • ljhgreyljhgrey member
    I'm very sorry. :( I hope you find happiness in your new job. 
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  • katlilvoce1katlilvoce1 member
    Sorry to hear your news, I'm glad that you are getting out of the retail business and hope that you will find it more peaceful in the credit union. Often I feel that my job is too stressful dealing with 3 kiddos being a nanny everyday. and Hurray for free cheese sticks they are sooo yummy. ((HUGS))
    TTC since November 08 IUI #1-BFN March 1, 2012 Saving Break will try IUI #2 in August 1/2012-S/A wash-count low 3 million 12/30/11 Luminarium(seaweed) stuck in cervix was suppose to "naturally" open it. Surgery for retrival. 12/7/11 Met with Dr. Dougherty new RE-more testing 2/11 Decided to take a year off to save for a new RE 1/11 Cycle day 4 a/s 15mm cyst left Ovary 1 follicle left over no meds this month. 12/10 Cycle Clomid-O'd Progestrone Dostinex =BFN 11/10 HSG-ALL CLEAR & S/A-Adequate 10/10 Cycle- Progestrone and Clomid-O'd=bfn 11/09 lap-removed a lot of scar tissue/endo =not so much cramps during AF ;) 2006 Appendectomy-cyst burst on right ovary =scar tissue 2005 abnormal cells-biopsy and cells removed=scar tissue
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  • joules12joules12 member
    So very, very sorry about this news!!!  Was really hoping it would be a BFP for you!  (((hugs)))
    TTC since honeymoon in 9/2010
    Me: 39, Dx DOR (FSH = 10.5, AMH = 0.43, best AFC = 10), AMA
    MH: 37, Dx Obstructive Azoospermia, multiple successful sperm retrieval procedures

    1/2012: IVF/ICSI #1 Antagonist = cancelled d/t poor response to max stims
    2/2012: IVF/ICSI #2 MDLF (4R, 4M, 1F) = BFP, saw heartbeat, missed m/c 9w0d, D&E
    8/2012: IVF/ICSI #3 EPP/MDLF (7R, 2M, 1F) = BFN

    12/2012: (New RE) Operative hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue

    1/2013: IVF/ICSI #4 Low-dose stim/Antagonist (AFC=6); ER=1/26 (5R-couldn't access rt ovary, 5M, 4F), ET=1/29 (trans 3) = BFP!; 2/11 beta#1(13dp3dt)=2127, 2/13=3367; twin girls due 10/19/13

    PAIF/SAIF very welcome!

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  • Whales124Whales124 member
    I'm so sorry!  BFNs are so painful - especially at work!  I hope your break gives you time to heal and your new job brings you a positive outlook for the future!
    ~ Me, 30 DH, 32 ~ TTC since Oct 2009 septum resection 3/2010 stage IV endo 8/2011 IVF #1 1/25/12, 2 transferred, 2 frozen - BFN FET 2/22/12, 2 transferred - BFN IVF#2 5/12, transferred 3, froze 5, BFP! Beta 1: 151, Beta 2: 282 Cerclage placed @ 17 weeks due to shortening cervix, modified bed rest until delivery SAIF/PAIF always welcome image It's a girl! ~ Clare was born 1/31/13
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  • annaliselannalisel member
    I'm so sorry. It's perfectly fine to grieve. IF is unfair. 
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  • wille2bwille2b member
    uugh, i am sorry.. (((BIG HUGS)))
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    TTC since 2005
    missed miscarriage nov 2006- 4 failed clomid cycles-
    3 failed femara iui cycles-
    moving on to IVF oct 2011
    ER nov. 7th
    tansfered 2 blasts on 11/10
    lots of +hpt!!
    beta #1 on 11/21= 50.4
    beta #2 on11/23= 90.8
    another miscarriage 12/23
    moving on to Round 2 of IVF with an auto immune dx
    ER 4/23-retrieved 12 eggs
    ET 4/28 3 transfered
    Beta #1- 356
    Beta #2- 870

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  • ukyankeeukyankee
    I'm so sorry.  I hope your next cycle is a big success!
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  • Temp556193750005695Temp556193750005695
    I'm so sorry
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  • lawjjg522lawjjg522 member

    Thanks ladies..  You all are so great! i went to bed in an "allright mood" and woke up with wet cheeks.. it was such a strange feeling..  Normally the opposite, go to bed crying wake up dry and puffy..

     

    I appreciate all the support! 

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  • orchid32orchid32

    I am so sorry to hear that.

    IF is the WORST.

    So unfair, frustrating, and hard. 

    First cycle of Clomid created one follicle=BFN Second cycle of Clomid created two follicles=BFN Break cycle= did not ovulate Third cycle of Clomid, 75mg, two follicles=BFN First IUI cycle with Clomid + Follistim=BFN First IVF Cycyle February 2012 Egg Retrieval on 2-14-2012 {13 follicles, 9 fertilized} Embryo Transfer on 2-19-2012 {Two blasts transferred} 6 snowbabies BETA #1 on 2/28 = 186 BETA #2 on 3/1=346 BETA #3 on 3/6 = 2,499 1st ultrasound on 3/13
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