Hello Everyone

mehtemetian

I'm new here so I just wanted to introduce myself. I feel sort of alone right now because I don't really know anyone in our situation and I don't really want to talk to my family about it so I was hoping these boards can be somewhere that I can share without any judgement/criticism etc. I apologize in advance for any grammar/spelling/syntax errors, I'm being too lazy today to correct. 

So, I'm 25 and a newlywed. My DH and I have been together for about 6 years now but we kept putting off getting married because of finances, then finishing school, then the ultimate bomb for us, in 2010 while we were planning the wedding, DH was diagnosed with Hodgkin's Lymphoma so he had to undergo surgery then chemo and radiation so we decided to put the wedding off until November of last year. So *woooohoooooo* we're finally husband and wife and starting our lives together. 

We've been wanting children for a while now and originally we had talked about waiting a year after the wedding before we started TTC, but I guess we changed our minds because these past couple of months we haven't been using any BC. So far, nothing. I'm actually expecting Aunt Flo today, took a home test this morning with a negative result, but started getting cramps too so I'm not to hopeful anymore about this month. 

My DH thinks that his count is fine so he won't get a SA and I don't want to push him (at least not yet) but I guess I'm just worried that we're going to have a hard time getting pregnancy because of the treatments that he's undergone. He's got a small number of his sperm banked, but IVF isn't exactly cheap, so that won't happen for a couple years. I guess I'm just frustrated and a little down because I want to be a mommy so bad, but the outlook doesn't seem as great as it did a couple years ago. To add to it, I can't help but feel a little envious of all the pregnancies and babies that I'm seeing around me. Our families have a lot of baby-making going on right now, just makes me want it even more. Anyways, I guess I'm just having a "down" day because of the lack of pink lines that I've had in my life lately hehehe. Thanks for letting me share.

mehtemetian

Ya, I really hope I'm over reacting. I guess I've got this worry in me that the cancer treatments may have affected his fertility (well, it's justified since they most likely did). I asked him once to get a SA and he thought it was not necessary so I don't want to keep bugging him about it. His outlook on it is that he wants to stay positive, (which as I'm typing this doesn't seem like such a bad idea...)

thanks for the fertilityfriend referral, I'll check it out. 

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