Part of me...

BriMilla

I go through these phases where I'm heart broken, then angry, then sad, then exhausted, and then I think about how much I want to get pregnant again and how long away that seems to even start trying, and then I feel guilty for thinking that. I feel like if I could just hurry up and get pregnant again some of these feelings will go away. And then I think I'm not grieving enough for Harper or I'm grieving too much.  I know that's completely irrational. I know we want to try again and hopefully continue to grow our family....I just can't get my mind right. Please tell me I'm not the only one feeling like this??? 

lrichmond86

You are ABSOLUTELY not alone!  I feel like this all the time.  We have to take it day by day, sometimes hour by hour, minute by minute, or second by second. 

foxxy1

You are not alone and what you're feeling is completely natural as you grieve. I'm about 2 1/2 months out and I still have days when I'm incredibly angry and moments when I'm just so broken and can't even get up out of bed. My due date is coming up in April and I shudder to think about that entire month. 

But don't be too hard on yourself. Everyone grieves differently. 

magdalina.h

These are very normal feelings.

olp79

I feel the same way, some days are better than others, yesterday I was feeling very down, today it's better, I feel angry/upset/sad, so many mixed feelings. I hope all of us can be moms one day, everyone tells me I'll be one, but we have problems getting pregnant, so who knows :-(

weddedwife

The mixed emotions are part of the process. They will slow down a bit as time goes by but you will still have good & bad days. Right after our loss I so wanted to be pregnant again right away, but my body wasn't ready. I decided to focus on recovering, getting back in shape & giving myself some time to grieve THIS baby before trying for another. It has been nearly 4 months & I am just now starting TTC and I think the wait has been good for me.

Heatherhah

You are not alone I have been through every single emotion and it is totally normal when you re grieving.

medblais

I didn't want to get pregnant again as much as I wanted a baby.  I know this sounds like the same thing, but I did not want the 9 month wait. My daughter died when she was a month old, and I was not thinking of replacing her, I just wanted another baby in my arms. I obsessed about it. Then I obsessed about calculating dates of "If I get pregnant around this time, then I'll give birth around this time" and now I am totally avoidant, scared, and uninterested in getting pregnant. I still go through all the emotions though, lingering on angry and heart broken most often.

Carolee

You're not alone.  I went through phases a lot in the beginning, and I still go through them now.  (((HUGS)))

pottermommy

There is no right or wrong way to feel and you certainly aren't alone.  I am sorry that this is so hard, and if there were something I could do to make it better I would, in a heartbeat.

Just know that everyine on this board either has been there or is there and we do understand.