Introducing Myself

blessedhope

Hi everyone,

I'm new here and wanted to share my story. My sweet baby boy who my husband and i named Titus went to heaven the day he was born due to a complication of childbirth called shoulder dystocia. He was born and went to heaven 9 months, 1 week and 1 day ago. We have recently deciced to start ttc again. We are scared and i'll need all the loving support I can get. All you ladies seem so nice and encouraging.

Will you tell me about your little one in heaven? How are you coping and how long has it been? Do you have special things you do in the memory of your baby? Looking forward to hearing from ya'll.

ally2011

Hello,

I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby Titus.  We are in the same place, time-wise...when was your baby's birthday (forgive my lack of backwards calendar math)?  My daughter was born on May 4.  She had an extremely rare (like less than 20 cases reported ever) condition that is believed to be recessive genetic, which means we have a 25% chance of it happening again.  I completely understand the fear of trying again.  We are all here for you, though of course we wish you did not have to be here at all.

Hugs,

Jenn 

goillini823

So sorry for the loss of your baby boy. I lost Gabriel a little over 2 years ago. I was 20 weeks pregnant when I found out he no longer had a heartbeat. 

Every year on my due date we go to our state park and release balloons up to heaven. We have a special little spot we like to just be at for a little but thinking of him. We also do the March of Dimes walk every year in his memory. I miss him like crazy, and it's still difficult on many days, but this board has been an amazing source of support.   

pb&fluff

I'm so sorry for your loss.  That is one of my biggest fears when we eventually get to deliver our baby.  I can't imagine your pain.  ((hugs))

cherrycobbler

I'm sorry for the loss of your son, Titus.  Our son Robin was born at 33wks and was diagnosed with Trisomy 13.  He lived for 6 days in the NICU and they were the most wonderful (and horrific) days of my life.  He passed away on August 29th of last year so it has been just six months for us.  We are very fearful of ttc again, but we will have some genetic testing and see what happens.  We haven't celebrated a birthday yet, but we look at his pictures and cry everyday and talk about how we miss him.  I hope ou find some comfort here on this board, everyone is so kind and understanding.

pottermommy

I am so so sorry for ypur loss.  My little girl was 19 months old when she passed due to an accidental drowning while I was at work 3.5 yeats ago. 

We release baloons, we have planted flowers, we had a star named after her.this year on her angelversary we are going to buy and release butterflies.  The thing to know is whatever you do you are remembering your LO and it is always always enough, even if you are just sitting in your room thinking about the precious baby.

I hope you find support here and that we can be here for you durring this time.

 

Mrs Nice

Hi, I am so sorry for your loss. I love the name Titus btw! My son was born sleeping almost a year ago due to a cord accident. I am undecided as to what to do on his birthday. It will be one hard day for sure!

magdalina.h

I'm so sorry for your loss of Titus.

My son, Aidan Christopher, was born at 284d due to my cord failing. When he was a day old they found a massive brain bleed. At 7 days his body was shutting down. They ran some tests and found the bleed took out the entire left side of his brain as well as part of the right side. On MH's 28th birthday, we say goodbye to Aidan when he was 8 days old. That was 2 years ago. I have many more good days than bad days now. I still sleep with the blanket that I held him in. I have his pictures all around my house and I love seeing his face every day.

dandywarhol

I'm so sorry for the loss of your son, Titus.  We lost our daughter in Oct 2011 at 21w due to a placental abruption.  She lived for 45 minutes before dying in my arms.  The hardest part was knowing that she was fine but that my body couldn't keep her safe and protected.

Good luck with the TTCAL journey.  It can be very emotional.  Check out the TTC After a Loss board to connect with more women. 

blessedhope

Hi Jenn,

I'm sorry about your daughter. My baby was born and went to heaven on May, 17. Have you ever heard of a woman named Nancy Guthrie? I have a book of hers and I know she has a website. I believe she also lost her baby to somesort of rare genetic condition. I don't know if her stuff would be of any help to you but thought I would pass it on. Thankyou for the kindness and ((hugs)) to you.

olp79

So sorry about your loss, I lost my babies on 2/6 at 22weeks, my water broke after spotting at the hospital :-(. It's been an emotional rollercoaster, some days are better than others. We did IVF because of my blocked tubes so I'll have to do it again, not sure when though, probably at the end of the year :-(

Carolee

I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet boy Titus.  Welcome to the board, although it's heartbreaking that you are joining us. 

My son is Eliott - he was born 8-13-10 after his heart stopped beating at 37 weeks.  We don't know why.  I wear an initial necklace with an E on it every day for him.  I never take it off.

LuckEinLuv

Welcome.  I am so sorry for your loss of Titus. 

My little Andrew's heart stopped beating at 23w6d on November 7, 2011.  A group of my friends bought me an angel necklace with a little "a" on it and I wear it all the time.  It only gets removed when I shower.  I like to hold it when I talk to him.

weddedwife

Thanks for sharing your story, and welcome. I'm so sorry for the loss of Titus.

I lost my son Nathaniel nearly 4 months ago due to preterm labor. I started having contractions & cramps, when I showed up at the hospital I was 4 cm dilated & the bag was bulging. I delivered him a few hours later and he died during the delivery. We had his body cremated and the urn we chose is a vase, so we keep fresh flowers in it always. It's all I can do for him now. I also am writing a journal about this experience, it's addressed to him. I keep a similar one for my DD (she's 2.5) than I plan to give to her one day.

Heatherhah

I am so sorry for your loss of your son Titus.

My DD2 was stillborn at 38wk 4 days they have no idea why she died they assume she compressed her cord she weighed 10lb 3 oz abdwas totally perfect.

We all wear urn jewlery with her ashes in it. I feel close to her that way. Everyday is a challenge I am now almost 5 months out and it is a little easier. I suppose the what if questions aren't there anymore as you can only replay them so much in your head and stay sane.