Some things I will just never forget....

MandynStephen

I will never forget the way I felt when after delivering James and while trying to get my placenta out, they brought in the dreaded u/s machine.  There were my precious boy was an hour earlier was now an empty womb being stripped of all pregnancy signs.  Just makes my heart hurt and gut wrench!

Mjmksb04

Ugh. When we checked into our hospital room when I was getting ready to be induced with DD #2, I remember the nurse wheeled out the warming bin where they would normally put a healthy baby to clean her up after being delivered, since obviously for us, that wasn't something we would need. It felt like a knife to the heart.

magdalina.h

I will never forget the image of the bleed taking out over half of his brain. I will never forget the controlled chaos of the nurses and dr taking him off life support.

It's awful that these are the memories we have of our lost children.

krysiahamaty

I'll never forget seeing the u/s of a still baby and a flat line.

 Big hugs.  

Petunia844

I will never forgot looking the mirror and knowing that my PE swelling was gone... the only "cure" for PE is delivery... but he was still inside. 

pb127

(((HUGS)))

erbarmywife

I will never forget the dr coming in, and rushing through what they were doing for Thia to tell me that Ella didnt make it.  Couldnt make it.

And, getting the dreaded phone call at 315am telling me I needed to get to the NICU NOW!  Walking in there, being told I didnt need to wash my hands, and going back.  Seeing my precious baby surrounded by nurses trying to keep her alive, and the dr coming to me telling me he was sorry, there was nothing they could do.  Even if they were able to get her stable, she would most likely be a vegetable.  The nurse wrapping her up in her blanket, and handing her to me so I could hold her while she passed.  Hearing the monitor alarms, and the nurse calling time of death.  

But, I also remember Thia pulling her PIC line out and refusing to let the nurses put it back in.  I remember feeling like the girls were fighting inside every night.  I remember holding Thia for the first time, and her snuggling into my chest.  She was so content there, and I could've held her forever if I was allowed to. 

careyalis

The best thing that I will never forget is Avery's first cry. I didn't know if she was alive at the time and I couldn't see her yet. It was amazing. I'll never forget how soft her hair was or the smoothness of her skin. I'll never forget how she looked into my eyes. 

I will also never forget the moment that we realized she had passed away. I'll never forget holding her lifeless body as we prepared to hand her to the nurse. I'll never forget DH and I holding her between us as we shook from crying so hard knowing that they had to take her. We bathed her the day after she died and the nurse asked us to trim her umbilical cord (they left it really long). It started to bleed and I felt like I was hurting her. I'll never forget how sad that made me feel. 

Bread09

I'll never forget frantically pressing the nurse call button because I couldn't feel her heartbeat and the nurse running in, taking her pulse and sliently shaking her head.  I also won't forget the doctor then coming in, checking her, and saying "Time of death, 7:25pm."

Heatherhah

Some things I will never forget is the way she looked identical to her big sister her chubby cheeks and and pretty much the whole day after we found out she had passed. That was the day that our life changed forever!!