Weird dreams/nightmares (TTCAL related)

foxxy1

I'm getting ready to TTC soon and last night I had a weird dream. Well, it was more of a nightmare. I dreamt I went in for my ultrasound at 19 weeks and my doctor told me there wasn't a heartbeat. Now what made this 'weird' was they (like a few nurses were in there) were standing around and eating while they're telling me this like it wasn't a big deal. (Maybe I should stop eating before bedtime.)

Anyway, the dream itself freaked me out and I really started to question if I should consider TTC this soon. Has anyone experienced weird dreams like that? Like something will happen with the next pregnancy? How did you handle it?

weddedwife

I have only dreamed about the baby (or any baby for that matter) once since our loss. That in itself freaks me out. I guess maybe my sleep is my escape since I only dream about stupid mundane things. I do daydream about awful stuff like that happening to another baby. I guess it just goes with the territory of knowing a huge network of women who have lost babies. I now know all the terrible things that can happen.

Dreams can be freaky real to me sometimes, and then I'll think about them all day long. I wouldn't put too much thought into it, honestly. I bet you won't be as freaked out about it tomorrow.

Now, how to stop the waking fears that something like that can happen? I don't know. I know that something like that really could happen. But if I want another baby, I just have to go for it, right? Something like that could happen if I get pg now or if I wait a year.

Heatherhah

I had a dream that I had a baby boy and I was nursing him and something happened and he went limp and I handing him to a nurse ans said oh no somethings wrong and I woke up. But that week was crazy dream week for me I had a dream someone borke into my house and shot my DD1 and I couldn't turn around because I knew she was dead so I think it is just the fact that death is really around our thoughts all the time now. I will tell you Foxy that TTC after a loss is so hard and so emotional. Everytime I get a BFN I feel like I have lost my little one all over again it sucks.   Good luck !!! You are not alone!

Heather

foxxy1

Thank you both for the words of encouragement. I keep going back and forth on exactly when to TTC but I think I'll always have that fear. Oh to be so naive about being pregant again...

erbarmywife

I'm 35 weeks, and still have dreams that something bad will happen.  It started about a month before I felt I was ready to TTCAL and havent stopped.  They vary, also..sometimes it's that there's no heartbeat.  Sometimes it's pre-term labor and the baby dies on its way out.  Sometimes it's after birth.  Point is, I think it's normal, and just another stupid loss thing.  I dont think they will ever go away.  I even have dreams about losing my other 2 kids.

johnnys june

I think you are the only one who can interpret your own dreams.  I am a firm believer though that dreams are our way of working out our inner fears.  I think sometimes they can give us some insight (are you ready or not to TTC!?! ect.), but I think most of the times, it's just our fears surfacing.  I heard someone once say that m/c dreams during a pgal is just your inner fear mixed with your inner desires and love for this new baby.  They don't "fortell" the future, they just show you how deeply you want this baby, this pregnancy. 

Don't give up, Lovey!  I can't promise the nightmares won't continue.  I had nightmares for months where I basically would relive losing Logan but each time the circumstance was different, the result was the same.  Now that I'm pg again, I've only had 3 or 4 nightmares but they've all been extreme and heartwrenching each time.  I find that I not only dream about losing the baby, I dream about losing DH too.  Our minds and our emotions are so intricate.  I don't think we could handle all of them when we're awake.  But when we dream them...we can always wake up.  If that makes sense. *hugs*

nuttycoconut

I haven't had those nightmares yet, but then again I haven't been getting much sleep since I keep reliving my nightmare when I'm trying to fall asleep. I'm sure I'll have a few nightmares in the next few weeks or months because I've always had very vivid dreams about people I know, to the point where I've contacted an ex boyfriend just to make sure he was okay since my dream was so scary! Like johnny's said, I don't think the dreams are a preminition, since I've had crazy dreams of people dying, childbirth, huge car accidents, etc. and they (thankfully and I'm knocking on wood right now) don't come true. It's just that ttcal is such a tough decision and it's consuming your thoughts now. I hope the nightmares end for you soon!

pb127

I keep having crazy dreams related to TTC but I'm trying not to let it affect my feelings about TTC. When things make me worry about a subsequent pregnancy, I try to remember that I have a good plan in place with my OB/MFMs and I am planning to enjoy each day that I have while pregnant as much as possible. Easier said than done, but I try. (((HUGS)))