Kind of hoping for induction ( long)

songstress503

I know it sounds silly, but I am really into the idea of having our baby next wednesday.  I am officially due next tuesday but the OB doesn't want me to go too much over ( minor hypertension), so we are inducing on wednesday.

I know I could go into spontaneous labour anytime now, but I kind of want to make it to my induction.  I think it has something to do with the planner in me.  I like the idea of going to the hospital prepared and knowing exactly what is going to happen, instead of playing  the "is it labour?" game.

It is extra crazy since my wishes don't really seem to mesh together.  I am  ok with the idea of using the gel to induce, but I have always wanted to avaoid Pitocin.  I would really like not to have an epidural, and from what I have heard once you have Pitocin you are pretty much headed for an epidural. The OB is planning to do at least one course of gel on wednesday hoping things start "naturally" before thursday morning ( this is my perfect situation).  I would love to have my body take over after a gentle nudge.

I know this sounds extra backward because I am ( like most of you) very uncomfortable, and logically I should be hoping for labour as soon as possible.  I think it has alot to do with the feat of the unknown.  As a FTM I have no idea what I am getting into ( though as an ECE, I have quite a leg up, I have worked with A LOT of babies).  But I am still sort of weirded out by the fact that in less than a week it alllllllll will change.  Please don't get me wrong I am super excited to have our baby girl, I am just having trouble coping with upcoming change,

Wow that turned out a lot longer than I expected. Vent over.