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I never thought I would get the point where I was scared to test..

LlamamamaLlamamama member
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I am feeling really good about this cycle.  My chart is different from the last 3 cycles--higher temps and it went UP 2 days ago after 3 days of heading down to my CL.  I have had cramps off and on for 3 days and lower back pain for the last 2...I keep running to the bathroom to check but no sign of FP.  Now that I am officially late (FF says FP was due yesterday) I am scared to POAS.  My heart tells me this is it but my head is so used to seeing the negatives I just can't bring myself to risk it. 
Me: 40 Dh: 41, TTC since August 2009, began Acupuncture and Herbs Sept 2011, began Temping and Charting Nov 2011. image
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  • MrsNukemMrsNukem member
    You won't know till you do :)  I'm crossing fingers and toes for you! 

    Me:40 AMA, DH:36 0% morph, TTC#1;
    BFP#1 4/2011, MMC 6/2011 11wks Trisomy 13;
    BFP#2 11/2011, CP
    FSH: 17.9, AMH: 2.2
    IVF#1 w/ICSI: ER 4/3: 5R,4M,4F
    ET 4/6 All 4 (1-8A+, 2-8A-, 1-3A) BFP#3
    Two weeks of beta hell = Blighted Ovum
    IVF#2 Aug/Sept: ER 8/27: 4R,3M,3F
    ET 8/30 (1-8A+, 1-6A+)
    Beta#1 9/10: 350; Beta#2 9/12: 796; Beta#3 9/20: 9155
    Expecting Boy/Girl Twins! My babies were born 4/23/13 at 36w1d!

     
     

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  • kat1221kat1221 member

    FX for you Llama!!  DOOOO IT!

     So excited for you!!

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  • BeckyP005BeckyP005 member
    Hope this is it!!! Good luck :)

    ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
    Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive.  Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)

    DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN  DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!


     

     

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  • benoitfanbenoitfan member
    come on llama...go pee already!  I'm dying to know.  I hope you have to pack your bags and move on from TTC>35.  FX for you!
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  • [Deleted User][Deleted User] member
    Llama!  I've got my fingers crossed for you!!! 
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  • ELF4321ELF4321 member

    **ticker warning**

    Fingers crossed for you honey!


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  • amandaleigh1amandaleigh1 member

    *ticker warning*

     

    I hope this is the birthday present you have been waiting for! I am crossing all my digits. 


    IVF #1 ET 1 d3 embryo 10/30/11 BFP
    3 Embryos frozen (1 d5, 2 d6)

    DS born 07/29/12

    FET #1 ET 1 d5 embryo 02/10/15 BFN

    FET #2 1 d6 embryo didn't survive thaw, transferred last d6. CP :(

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  • brooklynesquebrooklynesque member
    I hope this is your BFP!  Good luck.
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  • NuggetJoNuggetJo

    OMG!!!  Please I beg you just GO POAS!!!! Yes I'm yelling :-). Hoping you hear me all the way from Florida. I was stalking you this morning and thinking it looks good but didn't want to say anything because I know how it is to get your hopes up and then nothing. I am praying hard for you. 

    P. s. there was a HPT in those opk's I sent you so hurry up and use it already. :-)  

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  • JennyP1JennyP1 member

    I just logged on after being away for about a week and I'm so excited to see your recent posts...I cannot wait to hear the news!! Go TEST already!!! Smile

     

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  • LlamamamaLlamamama member
    It was NEGATIVE.  I am shocked.  I just know that can't be right.. sigh.  I did not use FMU but I thought since AF was due yesterday I would be ok..  I am not giving up yet.  I think I am still too early--I sure hope so anyway.  Send me any spare baby dust you have please!  :)
    Me: 40 Dh: 41, TTC since August 2009, began Acupuncture and Herbs Sept 2011, began Temping and Charting Nov 2011. image
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  • NuggetJoNuggetJo

    Llama- don't give up yet. Was it a digital or a FRER? My digital didn't come up positive for 2 days but I had super faint lines on the FRER so wait it out. Get a FRER and test again in the morning. 

    Im still keeping my fingers crossed for you!! 

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  • gundy21gundy21 member
    I am keeping everything crossed for you. I hope it is just too early / you need FMU.  Sending everything I can your way!
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  • AdiAdi

    Llama - do you still have the free VIP stuff?

    I would see what your temp does in the am....and test after that.

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  • LlamamamaLlamamama member
    imageNuggetJo:

    Llama- don't give up yet. Was it a digital or a FRER? My digital didn't come up positive for 2 days but I had super faint lines on the FRER so wait it out. Get a FRER and test again in the morning. 

    Im still keeping my fingers crossed for you!! 

    I used a CVS brand cheapie..which uses blue dye which I just saw online is that the best kind to use early.  

    I have the one you sent me but I don't know what brand it is.. I was saving that one to confirm because I think your OPK's were lucky--so certainly the test will be too!  

    Me: 40 Dh: 41, TTC since August 2009, began Acupuncture and Herbs Sept 2011, began Temping and Charting Nov 2011. image
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  • LlamamamaLlamamama member
    imageAdi:

    Llama - do you still have the free VIP stuff?

    I would see what your temp does in the am....and test after that.

    No I wish I had the free VIP stuff!  I keep checking to see if I have earned any free days--I could sure use them right NOW!  :)

    Me: 40 Dh: 41, TTC since August 2009, began Acupuncture and Herbs Sept 2011, began Temping and Charting Nov 2011. image
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  • MrsNukemMrsNukem member
    imageAdi:

    Llama - do you still have the free VIP stuff?

    I would see what your temp does in the am....and test after that.

    This!

    Me:40 AMA, DH:36 0% morph, TTC#1;
    BFP#1 4/2011, MMC 6/2011 11wks Trisomy 13;
    BFP#2 11/2011, CP
    FSH: 17.9, AMH: 2.2
    IVF#1 w/ICSI: ER 4/3: 5R,4M,4F
    ET 4/6 All 4 (1-8A+, 2-8A-, 1-3A) BFP#3
    Two weeks of beta hell = Blighted Ovum
    IVF#2 Aug/Sept: ER 8/27: 4R,3M,3F
    ET 8/30 (1-8A+, 1-6A+)
    Beta#1 9/10: 350; Beta#2 9/12: 796; Beta#3 9/20: 9155
    Expecting Boy/Girl Twins! My babies were born 4/23/13 at 36w1d!

     
     

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  • mtlaurelmtlaurel
    I hope it is just too early. Hang in there.
    TTC #1 since June 2010
    Me: 36, DH: 42
    Dx: DOR and MFI

    DH: low count + very low motility; hormones all normal; Sperm DNA Frag. test = poor to fair; male karyotyping normal
    Me: FSH 13.4 + AMH 0.26 + hypothyroidism; Scratch the hypothyrodism (?); Blood clotting and immune panel all negative; endometrial biopsy normal

    IVF #1 (MDLF - Jul/Aug 2011): BFN (9R, 5M, 3F with ICSI, 3dt of 1 10-cell grade 2, no frosties)
    IVF #2 (EP-antagonist - Sep/Oct 2011): BFN (6R, 4M, 3F w/ ICSI, 3dt of 1 6-cell, 1 7-cell, grade 4s, no frosties)
    DE IVF #1 (shared cycle - June 2012): c/p (6R, 6F w/ICSI, 3dt 1 8-cell grade A- and 1 7-cell grade A-; no frosties)
    DE IVF #2 (shared cycle with new donor - Nov/Dec/ 2012): - BFP!!!!! 12/14/12. U/S on 12/27 shows twins!!!!!

    SAIFW/PAIFW
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  • AbeilleAbeille member

    I'm a fan of the FRERs too. I really hope this is it for you.

    Me: 38, PCOS/ DH: 37

    DD born 12.21.09, conceived w/ injects and IUI



    TTC#2 since Nov 2011

    BFP 2.6.12 m/c 6w5d | BFP 5.25.12 c/p

    -Back to the RE-

    3 medicated IUIs, all BFN

    -Taking a break from treatment-

    BFP 11.20.12 ~ EDD 7.28.13

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  • AddictedToLipBalmAddictedToLipBalm member
    Llama, I'm wishing that neg away... FX your temps stay up and that you're in it to win it. :) 
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    BFP 3/30/12, with fingers and toes all crossed.

    AMA (37) + GD = HR, grr.

    EDD 12.12.12

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  • annaliselannalisel member
    Good luck!
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  • XV11StarXV11Star member
    Llama!!  I can't stand it - I so want this to be your beautiful big fat positive birthday present!   My fingers and toes and eyes are crossed for you that it was too early and you get your wish!!!
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