Just wanted to offer huge (((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))). I know you are having the "what if's" and February is upon us, again. Love you, sweetie. I cannot believe it's been almost 2 years since our sweet boys have been gone.
Twin boys born too early at 17w4d and 18w2d in February 2010
Transabdominal cerclage placed September 2010
DS born at 35w1d in February 2011
Twin girls born at exactly 36w in February 2013
Re: Maggie...
That stood out to me on the check in post too. I'm sorry you are having the "what ifs" magdelina (I hope I spelled it right!) I'm having the "what ifs" too. I was hoping they go away but I'm guessing they stick around for a while, if not forever? What if I called the dr earlier, could she have stopped the labor? What if I started bedrest earlier? I hate it so much.
Thanks ladies. I'm very glad the what if's started later this year than they did last year. Hopefully in a few years they will stop all together. I guess right now I'm just mad at myself. I knew I wasn't feeling him as much. I kept telling my mom and MH that something didn't feel right. I'm just so angry at myself for not calling. I could have been put on bed rest or given steroid shots sooner.
Some days it feels like holy crap it's already 2 years and other times it's holy craps it's only been 2 years.