Spotting started yesterday and my temp plummeted today. I feel her coming.
I guess I will be calling to set up CD3 B/W and my HSG. I am so scared. Mikey keeps saying it's for a good cause, and I know that. But, that doesn't make it any less scarier for me. I am petrified to even walk into the doctors office
I have no idea how I got through what I have so far. I guess before it was all for Aidan. Oh my God I miss him so much. I can't stop crying now. Everything always has to be hard. I can never catch a break with anything. Whether it's TTCALR or not. I'm sorry this turned into a crying/pouting fest..I just feel so defeated and helpless and I know you girls will understand and not just say "Just stop trying and chill out..It will happen" FU PEOPLE WHO HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT!
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Oh hon I am so so sorry.
(((hugs)))
aw, sweet pea. I am so sorry. Esp about Aidan. It IS scary.
The HSG is not a big deal but if you feel like you need more time take it? It isn't a race.
and FWIW Doctors office does trigger me at times. esp giving blood. ((hugs))
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I'm so sorry! Its hard not to feel helpless-its a situation you have no control over! If I could throat punch everyone that says just relax I would-that is so not helpful advice!
Can someone go with you to your doctor's appt so its not quite as scary? I know when DH goes with me it helps just to have him talk to me in the waiting room!
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Oh my Goodness...Mikey comes to every appointment I have. My anxiety can get so intense I pass out. So Mike is with me for everything. He will be in the room for the bw and the HSG. I know I probably sound like a big baby..but it is an illness I've dealt with my whole life. I hate passing out...sometimes I even have seizures. I usually bring something like my DS or mp3player with me to distract me from the sounds and smells. It is terrible. I just have to try and think positive..that helps..sometimes.
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I'm sorry hun - it does suck. I can only say that no matter how scared you are of the whole dr thing - you are so much stronger than you are giving yourself credit for. After everything you have been through - you can do this - I promise. I understand being scared - 2 years ago I would have laughed if someone told me I would have hundreds of internal u/s and go through IUI's and IVF and willingly give myself tons of shots. But, I did do it. Somehow you just do what you need to do when you need to do it.
And remember - you don't have to do everything today or tomorrow. You just have to take one day at a time. Right now all you need to do is make a phone call to set up your CD 3 bloodwork. Just take it one step at a time. You can do this. ((((hugs))))
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OH hun! I am so sorry! {{hugs}}
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