TTC After a Loss 6 Months+

Well......

Spotting started yesterday and my temp plummeted today.  I feel her coming.Sad 

I guess I will be calling to set up CD3 B/W and my HSG.  I am so scared.  Mikey keeps saying it's for a good cause, and I know that.  But, that doesn't make it any less scarier for me.  I am petrified to even walk into the doctors office Confused

I have no idea how I got through what I have so far.  I guess before it was all for Aidan. Oh my God I miss him so much. I can't stop crying now.  Everything always has to be hard. I can never catch a break with anything. Whether it's TTCALR or not.  I'm sorry this turned into a crying/pouting fest..I just feel so defeated and helpless and I know you girls will understand and not just say "Just stop trying and chill out..It will happen"  FU PEOPLE WHO HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT!

Btw.. I Love You Girls! 

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  • Oh hon I am so so sorry.

    (((hugs)))

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  • aw, sweet pea. I am so sorry. Esp about Aidan. It IS scary.

    The HSG is not a big deal but if you feel like you need more time take it? It isn't a race.

    and FWIW Doctors office does trigger me at times. esp giving blood. ((hugs))


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  • I'm so sorry!  Its hard not to feel helpless-its a situation you have no control over!  If I could throat punch everyone that says just relax I would-that is so not helpful advice!

    Can someone go with you to your doctor's appt so its not quite as scary?  I know when DH goes with me it helps just to have him talk to me in the waiting room!

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    I'm so sorry!  Its hard not to feel helpless-its a situation you have no control over!  If I could throat punch everyone that says just relax I would-that is so not helpful advice!

    Can someone go with you to your doctor's appt so its not quite as scary?  I know when DH goes with me it helps just to have him talk to me in the waiting room!

    Oh my Goodness...Mikey comes to every appointment I have.  My anxiety can get so intense I pass out.  So Mike is with me for everything.  He will be in the room for the bw and the HSG.  I know I probably sound like a big baby..but it is an illness I've dealt with my whole life. I hate passing out...sometimes I even have seizures. I usually bring something like my DS or mp3player with me to distract me from the sounds and smells.  It is terrible.  I just have to try and think positive..that helps..sometimes.

    Thank you all!

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  • I'm so sorry for AF on her way. I was really hoping this was your cycle. We are here for you.
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  • ((huge, warm hugs)) I am so sorry you are going through this. I know Aiden knows how much you miss him and I bet he is looking forward to being a big brother. I'm sending you strength and positive thoughts for and easy and helpful b/w and HSG. 
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  • I am so sorry that she's preluding to her appearance.  The HSG was really easy for me and it seems that way for most women.  I wish you the best of luck hun.  (((HUGS)))
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  • ((hugs)) I am so sorry. I hope it all goes smoothly for you. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. Good luck.
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  • Oh hun I am so sorry you are having a hard time.  TTC sucks major balls.  Make the appointment, that is the hardest part.  Sending you tons of love!!!
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  • I am so sorry that AF showed up. I hope things go well with the testing. I think it is awesome that Mike comes with you to all your appointments. ((Hugs))
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  • Sorry to hear you feel like your period is on the way Sad

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  • I'm sorry hun - it does suck.  I can only say that no matter how scared you are of the whole dr thing - you are so much stronger than you are giving yourself credit for.  After everything you have been through - you can do this - I promise.  I understand being scared - 2 years ago I would have laughed if someone told me I would have hundreds of internal u/s and go through IUI's and IVF and willingly give myself tons of shots.  But, I did do it.  Somehow you just do what you need to do when you need to do it. 

    And remember - you don't have to do everything today or tomorrow.  You just have to take one day at a time.  Right now all you need to do is make a phone call to set up your CD 3 bloodwork.  Just take it one step at a time.  You can do this.  ((((hugs)))) 

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  • Sending ((hugs)). I'm sorry af is on her way.

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  • OH hun! I am so sorry! {{hugs}}

     

     


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