I think I just horrified myself....

samakasrc · January 2012

So, when planning for Gabriel's arrival, I planned to have a video camera in the room. The main reason was because if he cried (which he didnt) I wanted to have it recorded. So I asked my doula to make sure to push record on the camera when it came time to push... which she did. I just pulled out the camera and found the video and of course I watched it. I couldn't stop watching my angel come into the world. (it wasn't a straight on shot, we had it from the side). However, after about 10 seconds I had to put it on mute... I couldn't listen to myself like that. WOW I was horrified... However, we did capture the first 10 minutes or so of his 35 minutes with us. Even though there are people standing in front of the camera and walking in front of it - the last 5 seconds was just of us and him... amazing moments to catch on video.

And... today was our due date Its been a rough day, but seeing him alive and in my arms on that video was so fitting and comforting...