L&D, but no baby. :-/ (long)

theaterbahai

So my doc has been pushing for inducement for awhile now.  And I have been pretty against it the whole time.  Don't get me wrong, I am VERY done being pregnant, but there is something special to me about being able to say "Oh my gosh, it's time!"  I am sure that is a naive FTM thing, but there it is.

So last night, I was just not hungry. DH was eating pasta and we were watching some TV, when I noticed my stomach getting hard pretty regularly... The only thing was, it was only in one spot, and didn't feel like much.  But the regularity of it (in combination with the fact I had been feeling rather off all day) certainly got me a bit excited.  DH and I let two more episodes of "Castle" go, (thanks Netflix) still timing, and decided to just get looked at.  After all, better safe than sorry, right?

As we get to OB Triage, I have noticed that I am not feeling contractions as much, so I begin to feel kind of stupid.  I let them hook me up anyway, and the uncomfortable 5 hours begins. My contractions are indeed 5-6 min apart, but I am still only feeling them on the very top of my belly, so my instinct is that, this is not "it".  I was only dilated 1cm, as I had been for about a month, BUT, they want to admit me and monitor me anyway... OK, fine.

Luckily, the L&D rooms at my hospital are WAY more comfy than the triage beds.  My DH realizes his wallet is at home, and (being sure I wasn't going anywhere) I sent him to get it. In the mean time, I am actually feeling all of my contractions, so I figure, well maybe I am making progress.... I am walking around for about 30-40 minutes every hour to try to help things along, and I realize I have not eaten since lunch the day before, and it is now 4am. I begin to feel sick, and end up retching a bit (SO Sorry TMI).  So I start psyching myself up, thinking this is a sign...

My next monitoring session, I lay on my side.... contractions stop. *sigh*  So now I am faced with a choice, the doc on call (not my doc, she is currently skiing) wants me to induce, and the nurses are making jokes about how no one with my doc gets past their due date without inducing, to which I say, "I did".  But it is almost 6 am, I have only cat napped, and I am hungrier than all hell, and emotions are very high.  How the hell am I supposed to make this decision?! My DH points out that I am obviously uncomfortable with it, or else I would have jumped on the chance.  I agree, and we are given discharge papers... So we head for an IHOP, then bed. Hopefully soon I will meet this little one,... and hopefully on Mother Nature's terms... but who knows? If I feel the need to go in again, I am having this baby... induced or no.  Maybe that makes me some version of a bad person, but that was a lot of hoops to jump through for no real result...

Thanks for letting me vent. I needed some emotional and mental release...

michelle_1221

Hang in there!  I think everyone has to do what is right for them, and it's your choice.  I'm sure your LO will be here soon and that is so very exciting!

AugustSkye

You should be proud of yourself for resisting an induction! If I were as far along as you, I would jump at the offer of being induced. Haha! Hopefully not too much longer until LO decides to make an appearance.