I've given up on this cycle

CashewsMommy

So I officially gave up on this cycle a few days ago. I'm still temping, but that's the only time i'm looking at my chart, is right after I temp. I stopped using OPKs and i'm just going to wait out AF. 

I'm probably going to call when I hit CD 60 to ask for provera. But I just hate that. I know they're going to make me come in for a pregnancy test before they give me the prescription. I'm not pregnant people!! And your stupid $75 wondfo look a like pregnancy test is going to tell you the same exact thing that I already know!!

Stupid ovaries!!! Why don't you work like you're supposed to?

And you know what I hate the most? We conceived Aurora on our own. No charting, no OPKs, no meds, no u/s.  Everyone throws that in our faces. "Well, why don't you just do that again?" and now DH is even thinking about that! AHHHHHHHHH!!!!! 

Sometimes I feel like this inside:
  

And sometimes I think if I just do that, i'll feel 100% better. Only I want to beat up my ovaries.  

buckeyebaby814

I've STILL been chart stalking you and hoping for a +OPK/ O.  That would be frustrating with people saying those kinds of things... just because you didn't have too much trouble the first time doesn't always mean it will stay that way. I'm sorry hon  

cmumama

Ugh, I'm so sorry hun.  People always assume I will easily get pregnant b/c it was so easy the first 2 times.  11 cycles later...here I am....still not KU'd.  I want to punch people when they say that to me, so I can understand your frustration.

Sending you ((big hugs!!))

MandaS08

I'm sorry hun!  You know that the charting and OPK's is not preventing you from getting pregnant-so just ignore those people that say that (and tell DH he better not go there!)  Its frustrating when your body totally doesn't cooperate, and it makes it worse when other peope dont get that!  HUGS

lavril

I'm so sorry!  I've been chart stalking you too, praying for a +opk and temp spike!  I wish everyone would just back the F up sometimes and keep their mouth shut.  I hate all those "helpful" comments. 

CashewsMommy

Thanks ladies! 

I think the thing I hate about this cycle, is that my temps were actually quite steady.... until just a few nights ago. Now they're all over the place! WTF?  

1220winterbride

so sorry. ((hugs)) this sucks.

mrsgaines100

Wish I could say something helpful.  I am sorry you have to deal with this crap!

mork

ufsandra85

i am so sorry i want to do that too but to someone who makes stupid comments like the one you mentioned

butterfly843

((hugs)) I'm sorry you are dealing with a long cycle.

csquared426

Sorry Cashew's - what a PITA.

((HUGS))

LSzwaya

I am sorry. I have had insane cycles off and on and its the worst. Waiting to O is almost worse than the 2WW. Our DS was conceived after our first MC but we had no trouble at all. Makes the last 14 months and 2 losses so much harder to swallow bc we just weren't expecting this. I am so so sorry. 

delino

I"m so sorry....(((HUGS)))

amandachs

I'm really sorry (((Hugs)))

VeilSdeGTO

*lurking*

((hugs))

I chart stalk you everyday hoping to see a +OPK for you. I'm sorry you feel so frustrated and angry.

cutebride73

Ugh - how frustrating!!  On every count - your body not cooperating and people saying stupid things.  I really hope that you just O on your own and that you don't need provera this cycle.  And how stupid that they make you come in for a pregnancy test before giving it to (I know its a liability issue) but I am pretty sure you know how to read a pregnancy test.  I'm sorry hun.  ((((hugs))))

luvmyducks

  

I'm sorry hon.  Waiting to O is the absolute worst.  And I hate when people say to just stop trying so hard.  It makes me want to scream.  I actually enjoy knowing what is going on with my body, thank you very much!

((hugs))  

I hope something happens soon for you so you don't have to get the Provera. 

CashewsMommy

Thanks ladies. Of course now i'm kicking myself for not testing with OPKs. I had some cramps again which makes me think it might be O cramps. And when DH and I FWPed last night, when I went to the bathroom I wiped out almost no sperm. I hate TTCAL sometimes. It's such a mindfluck. 

Carolee

Big (((HUGS))).

damabo80

Damn, I'm sorry. I've btdt many times with the annovulatory cycles, and it's so frustrating. 

Do you ever have breakthrough bleeding with them? For me, it usually comes around cd50-60, so I just wait for that so I don't have to go in and pee on a $75 test. 

CashewsMommy

damabo80:

Damn, I'm sorry. I've btdt many times with the annovulatory cycles, and it's so frustrating. 

Do you ever have breakthrough bleeding with them? For me, it usually comes around cd50-60, so I just wait for that so I don't have to go in and pee on a $75 test. 

I did have one where I had breakthrough bleeding. That was around CD 40. But then there was that one hell cycle where I waited until CD 80 to get provera.