We survived the past few days...is every one else accounted for?

LucyAnnie

It was hard.  I told my mom that most of the time, we are okay with not having children, but during Christmas time for me, is the hardest.  She said she understands which I know she does after their IF struggles, but its just not the same.  

Our nephew and niece were adorable and sweet and it made my heart hurt to see them, and also to see my pregnant bff at church with her two little ones.  I didn't even offer up a prayer that we would have our own someday because Im pretty sure that train has already passed.  

It seems J and I switch back and forth with who is okay and who is upset.  Right now its me, and now he is upset we cannot have children.  Its so hard to see.   

I cannot wait to see 2011 end.   

 

BeckyP005

DH couldn't even get a smile out of me until our families came over and I started drinking. I usually LOVE Christmas!! I was kinda upset because I thought I would find a box that when I opened it there would be a piece of paper saying...lets do DE IVF! Nope...a gift card.

If we don't go that route...idk. Therapist in future for sure. I'm PMSing really bad. I can't even reply to the board I'm on about the BFP's. That's awful. I feel bad but I feel so fragile right now. I just sit and cry and think about how I want to make cut out sandwiches for my child's lunch box or have a houseful of kids over for dinner...all chattering around the kitchen table.

I guess we all learn how to move on evidently but I might need you ladies on here to help me. Lucy I can't wait till 2011 to end also!  HUGS