i hate Christmas

DesiraeSunshine

And everyonewho doesn't understand why im sad and not looking forward to it. I've been holding back trying to spare others feeling, but I may lose it and give them the "this should have been the twins first christmas, they are dead and not here" speech.

Petunia844

I completely understand.  I wish we could just hit the fast forward button through Christmas this year.

krysiahamaty

I feel the same way. I want to skip Christmas this year so badly.

Big hugs.  

roxyttandme

Yep. We get it. No speech needed. 

(((hugs))) 

magdalina.h

Don't hold back. Keeping your feelings in doesn't do YOU any good. If people are honestly "stupid" enough to not know why you are upset, they deserve the speech.

NicoleD54

I hate this time of year as well, and it's a million times harder that our families and friends aren't understanding or even aware that Christmas will be so hard for us.

mdluv21

I just gave that speech to my MIL last night!

emizer

magdalina.h:

Don't hold back. Keeping your feelings in doesn't do YOU any good. If people are honestly "stupid" enough to not know why you are upset, they deserve the speech.

Ok, I'm going with this mentality!

Carolee

Me too.  And now I have another reason to hate Christmas.  I just want to go into hibernation until about January 2nd or so.

frogs007

I'm feeling the same way.  We actually turned down a family event tonight and I tried to explain to my Dad that being around people is hard for me.  It's hard to see people happy and playing with their kids while I'm missing my boys so much.  It doesn't matter that they weren't due until Feb.  They were born and died and I miss them.  Sometimes I wish I could wear a sign that says, "I miss my babies" and maybe people would leave me alone.  Do what you need to do.  Hopefully others will understand.  Hugs.  It's totally unfair.  I hope next year is a little better for you and all of the angel mommies on this board.

cookie_queen

I'm pretty honest with people. I don't want to hide it.

I feel how I feel.

This time of year sucks.

Petunia844

Carolee:

Me too.  And now I have another reason to hate Christmas.  I just want to go into hibernation until about January 2nd or so.

Big big hugs.

butterfly843

((hugs)) I can completely relate and wish I could just skip to January. I'm not looking forward to all the family parties this weekend.

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drvst8

I'm suppose to have a 3 month old who should be experiencing his first Christmas. Instead I have nothing. And people wonderful I hate christmas this year. There are few people who understand. I'm still tryin got figure out what I'm going to do,,,not sure I want to visit family yet.