8dp5dt and devoid of hope

bluefish63

Yup...not even a hint of a line this morning on FRER.

Beta is tomorrow and I am already feeling broken. I don't know how I'm going to do this. I'm terrified of how I am going to react and feel. Is IVF #1 the hardest?

I have such admiration for all you ladies who continuously pick yourselves up and do this over and over again. You are all the strongest women I have ever encountered.

LaLe09

I'm so, so sorry for the BFN. I do feel that my first BFN was really hard (it was actually a c/p). I laid in bed and couldn't stop crying for about two days. I reacted in different ways for my last two cycles... but with my last cycle my reaction was going out for margaritas. (I guess that's better than laying in bed? not sure.) Anyway- again i'm really sorry. It is so painful to see a negative after everything you have been through.

juls052309

Buddy!!

Ill be honest for me it gets harder every cycle but the sadness is less and the anger is more if that makes any sense. Praying for you.

jillychris

I'm sorry!! Still crossing my fingers that you just have a late implanater there, but sending you lots of ((HUGS)).

AmCheri

Oh Bluefish, I'm sorry you're so down. I'm staying hopeful for you. I think we keep picking ourselves up again because we have to. We all have bad days, but our commitment doesn't waver when it really matters. No matter what the outcome, you'll get through this. And we'll help you. 

BeeBee08

I'm so sorry.  My heart breaks for you, I hate that IF does this to us.  Sending you big ((hugs)) and prayers that a sunny day is just around the corner for you.

juls052309

AmCheri:

Oh Bluefish, I'm sorry you're so down. I'm staying hopeful for you. I think we keep picking ourselves up again because we have to. We all have bad days, but our commitment doesn't waver when it really matters. No matter what the outcome, you'll get through this. And we'll help you. 

Couldnt have said it better!! AM CHERI you rock! Blue I sent you an email .

debnut39

Please try not to be sad. I know it is easier said than done. Like the other ladies have said..you still may get a positive beta! I am wishing this true for you.

 For me, I try to think that practice makes perfect. I also try to think that my body was not getting preggo for a reason...something was wrong, etc. That it was doing us a favor and letting us try again for a perfect embryo. I try to persuade myself that next time will be the magic one.

 Take care and good luck tomorrow!  

jess52278

AmCheri:

Oh Bluefish, I'm sorry you're so down. I'm staying hopeful for you. I think we keep picking ourselves up again because we have to. We all have bad days, but our commitment doesn't waver when it really matters. No matter what the outcome, you'll get through this. And we'll help you. 

I am so sorry.  I do hope your beta returns a different outcome though.  I could not have said it better than AmCheri. 

I just had my IVF #1 return a negative result last month.  It was devastating and I did spend a few days in bed simply crying.  Now that I am a few weeks removed from the outcome I feel as though I can and will do another cycle. Please take care of yourself and do what is best for you at this time.  Thinking of you.

hootie123

I'm sorry

The first failed IVF was the hardest for me.  The second I was shocked and then sad.  I'm not sure how I'll feel if the third doesn't work...

dancinaggie

I'm so sorry you are feeling down.  My first failed cycle was the hardest, in that I was a complete emotional wreck for a while.  The second one has given me a lot more anger.  I'm holding out hope for you, and like AmCheri said, we're here no matter the outcome!  ((Hugs))

mommadness

get over it and adopt.  or get a dog.  so much complaining and whining.  you chose IVF, deal with it.

juls052309

mommadness:

get over it and adopt.  or get a dog.  so much complaining and whining.  you chose IVF, deal with it.

 

Not necessary~get over yourself. No on asked you directly for your opinion on the matter anyways!

jess52278

mommadness:

get over it and adopt.  or get a dog.  so much complaining and whining.  you chose IVF, deal with it.

If you are not going to be supportive of the ladies on this board why bother posting here? IF and IVF are hard enough to deal with without having to deal with snide comments such as yours.

jess52278

Seems as though this person is a troll and created an account for the sole purpose of popping on various boards to mock the real posters.  They have a few other posts all equally rude.

gidge

looks like someone is bored today...

mommadness

im just wondering what is wrong with you people.  do you have a disease that makes you not have children?  id probably kill myself if i couldnt create life the way women are SUPPOSED to.  i wonder if ya'll are contagious...

gidge

mommadness:

im just wondering what is wrong with you people.  do you have a disease that makes you not have children?  id probably kill myself if i couldnt create life the way women are SUPPOSED to.  i wonder if ya'll are contagious...

You need some new material - this is basically the same thing you wrote on another post. Sorry you're not getting all the drama you were hoping for!

jessican08

mommadness:

im just wondering what is wrong with you people.  do you have a disease that makes you not have children?  id probably kill myself if i couldnt create life the way women are SUPPOSED to.  i wonder if ya'll are contagious...

I hope to God you're some prepubescent or teenage boy who is just tired of jerking off and has nothing better to do...because that's really how you're coming off in all of your muddy posts.

If not, you're a pathetic excuse for a human being. I shudder to think you're a grown woman with children. 

Oh and by the way, it's "y'all", not "ya'll". Pay closer attention in English class tomorrow.

 

Ruthie04

Oh sweetie. I'm so sorry. My IVF bfn was so difficult. I told DH there was no way I could do it again. However, after AF came and all those hormones were gone, I felt better. I'm still having bad days, but I have a little bit of hope again. 

Sending a giant hug your way.

shyntrue

((Hugs))

Mrs.McIrish

I'm so sorry. I think you grieve initially but somehow, you dust yourself off and get back on the horse until you don't want to anymore.  Hugs.

Mayan2011

I am so very sorry sweets.  It is important that you take time to grieve this properly.  A BFN is very hard to take, especially after treatment.  Please don't underestimate your own strength.  It isn't until we are put in these situations that we really understand how strong we truly are.  AND remember, even the strong cry, beat up pillows, and question past decisions.  It is all part of this.  You will be OK and know we are here for you.

((hugs))

TaylorandMel

mommadness:

im just wondering what is wrong with you people.  do you have a disease that makes you not have children?  id probably kill myself if i couldnt create life the way women are SUPPOSED to.  i wonder if ya'll are contagious...

 **LURKING

Telling people to kill themselves?  REALLY?!  You better get on your knees and pray that no one kills themselves after talking so dumb, because your azz would probably be charged. 

DKC1308

mommadness:

im just wondering what is wrong with you people.  do you have a disease that makes you not have children?  id probably kill myself if i couldnt create life the way women are SUPPOSED to.  i wonder if ya'll are contagious...

 

Hey! Omg guess what? Did you know that every post you make leaves an IP address that can be, very easily, linked back to your home or office computer? Yep, totally! And what you said is actually punishable by law?

Oh wait.... you didn't think that the anti bullying and harassment laws were just for teens did you? Awe shucks! 

Welp, me and my "contagious" cancer surviving, can no longer have babies because my eggs are crap, can't adopted because of said cancer self are going to head out now. Stay classy Mommadness, stay classy.