That is the question that I continue to ask every single day. I have 3 people in DH's family that are pregnant and they will all get their take home babies I'm sure ,so why us? Why were we chosen to have an angel baby and have to try for another take home baby , people I speak to tell me that it is just how things had to be. Well I can't believe that. We have no answer as to why Sydney died and that haunts me every day. I have to blame someone so for now I blame God and my doctors which I know isnt right to blame god but my heart is so broken it has been almost 9 weeks and I am so bitter about her not being here. I want her back so much!! I am terrified about being pregnant again and losing another baby. I hope I am normal with my thinking!! I feel like a weirdo thinking like this.