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AustinMimi

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FireChiefsBrideEMTXOrangeFelt Good luck, everyone! I'm hoping for a wave of BFPs very soon.  QOTW: I'm all out. Anyone care to have a giant flame-free venting session today?  

AustinMimi

Alright, I'll start!

Not much of an update here. I'm on CD 7 of cycle 5 of TTC. 

My vent is that I was so hoping to be pregnant by the holidays. Now I am going to be OOT visiting both sides of DH's family and I just know that I am going to get barraged by the two questions that I hate the most ever of all time:

1) When are you going to have kids? (already been asked this one twice in the process of exchanging wish lists with DH's stepsisters)

2) When are you going to finish your dissertation?

Bite me, future question askers. I just don't know what to say now that we are TTC. It feels weird to be vague. 

SareBear30

Just a little bitter here. Not super upset yet each month, but I'm getting that way. I know we haven't been trying for years or anything, but as the months eek by, it's getting frustrating. I think I'm more upset with my body than anything. Each month when I get my period, I'm upset that I'm not pregnant, but I think I'm more upset with the absurd number of migraines that I continue to get, despite everything I've done/tried to fix them. I am just so hopeful that 1) I can get pregnant, 2) I will get pregnant, 3) that my migraines will be better during pregnancy. Whiny vent over.

FireChiefsBride

I have been staying up ridiculous hours for school and have been stressed at work, which has led to 40+ day cycles and more than a little additional stress.

And BIL/ SIL gave us a word-that-cannot-be-said crib and I'm kind of weirded out, even though they know our status, timeline, etc.  It's a very nice PB one, though!

Vent: I cannot begin to convey how much I loathe this time of year, and that makes me very sad. ILs suck. 

Good luck to everyone, though.  Please enjoy mixed drinks with abandon while dealing with rude interrogators.

And Mimi, my answer is always "when the time is right". GL!

AustinBride06

I have my annual OBGYN appt today so I'm excited about that.  I hope we can come up with a plan.  Should I ask for an RE referral?  It's been almost 6 months since our second loss.  It took us 3 cycles of TTC to conceive that one and I'm on the 4th cycle after that loss.

VENT: that DH made me help him clean the house last week after I got home from work (when he sat on his ass and played video games all day) before he would consider touring singapore.  ON THE DAY I WAS OVULATING. I was livid. And then there was the whole ovulation bleeding debaucle.  UGH.  And this week is the week last year that my world started to fall apart (and my first pregnancy was conceived) leading to months and months of tears, stress, loss, and therapy.  I assumed all year that I'd either be holding a baby or at least pregnant by this point.  Not to mention Christmas looming.  I am SO not excited about Christmas this year.

 

kirknsarah

Update: I'm 3 dpo. Our fertile window was over the TG holiday, when we had people staying with us for 7 days. Oy. I don't have a great feeling about this cycle because I never had EWCF. But our timing was good, and that's all we can do. I took 150 mg of Clomid this cycle. My OBGYN says if my progesterone numbers don't go up enough she is referring me to an RE. So I'm really really hoping my numbers go up.

Vent: My sisters were both here for Thanksgiving, and we had a baby shower for my younger sister. It was really great to see them, but I had several moments of feeling sorry for myself. Of course, my older sister (who is 15 weeks) is still really really sick, so then I felt guilty for being jealous. Sigh.

ETA: Mimi, I got that a lot this holiday. People would look to my 6 months PG younger sis, my 15 week PG older sis, and say, "When are you going to have a baby?" My grandmother, who is the sweetest lady, bless her heart, said, "Maybe you should go up to Chicago since there's something in the water up there!" Thanks Memaw. If only it were that easy..... I just said things like, "We'll see!"

agran

Update: finally got AF and man it was rough!  Seriously I went through a whole box of tampons.  But it's over now and I'm enjoying one last month of freedom before I start hormones for the FET.  who knows maybe DH and I will have a christmas miracle-- I say that dripping with sarcasm.

 Vent: I vented below but basic is I'm in a pretty low place right now.  Holidays suck.  Suck a lot.  but I'll get through it.  It sucks worse that a co-worker (office next door) just announced her twin pregnancy.  I'm being brave and very happy for her but I really wish I could just not come to work for the next six months.  It's like God is laughing at me... hey let me take away the one thing you wanted and then torture you by making you watch someone else have their IVF dreams come true.  Awesome... really f-ing awesome.  And since this is flame free I can't help but wonder how she will support twins-- she makes what I do and her hubby is unemployed.  There I said it... I'm horrible. 

agran

AustinBride06:

I have my annual OBGYN appt today so I'm excited about that.  I hope we can come up with a plan.  Should I ask for an RE referral?  It's been almost 6 months since our second loss.  It took us 3 cycles of TTC to conceive that one and I'm on the 4th cycle after that loss.

 It's up to you when you move to an RE but I will say that I felt like I wasted six months TTC with my OB.  When I went to the RE it was a whole new level of testing and treatment options.  They just know a lot more.  It never hurts to get a consult no one forces you to do treatment. 

AustinBride06

agran:

It's like God is laughing at me... hey let me take away the one thing you wanted and then torture you by making you watch someone else have their IVF dreams come true.  Awesome... really f-ing awesome.  And since this is flame free I can't help but wonder how she will support twins-- she makes what I do and her hubby is unemployed.  There I said it... I'm horrible. 

 I tooooootally feel your pain.  5-6 friends/coworkers/acquaintances got pregnant around the same time I did so there was a giant wave of babies around my first EDD.  It sucked.  Don't feel guilty about it.  You can't help what you feel.  

risa_4-11-09

I really hope that my calendar is getting close to what is actually going on. Being new to charting I have no clue it its right. Seriously considering an ovulation kit to check.. any recs?

If it is right I O'd during Thanksgiving while we were staying at my moms. On an 'antique' metal bed, that you can barely move on without it making awful noises. We tried to be creative, thankfully they go to bed early

Great thing is per the calendar I will O while at the inlaws for Christmas too

 

Vent: a family friend posted on my FB last night,.. congrats so excited for you guys. Cant believe you are due in Feb. ... Ummm NO we are not.    Then I deleted it. Our families would have flipped there lid if we hadnt told anyone till then. Why would anyone think thats okay?  I sent her a message and kind of jumped down her throat. Feel a little bad but.. owell.

 

 

 

Tiffany5412

You can add me back to the list.  I have my f/u appt on Friday from my D&C.  She's going to refer us to get genetic testing just to rule out any genetic disorders since my insurance covers it just to get that off the table.  I have an appointment with the new doc on Jan 25th so I'm excited to meet her and get her point of view on things.

QOTW: Everyone and their mom is freakin' pregnant or having babies around me.  Including a lot of people that I know that had "oops" pregnancies recently.  I don't want to whine and say "poor me, I've had two miscarriages and can't get pregnant" but it is a little frustrating that I'm not as fertile as they are.  The thing that pissed me off the most though was that my mom's new stepdaughter who had abortion #2 in the last year and a half said to me at the wedding this week "If anyone knows how you're feeling right now it's me".  Umm....no.  You CHOSE not to keep your babies.  I actually wanted mine!  Now, I'm glad she didn't seeing that my mom and her new husband have custody of her son.  But still!  You DON'T know how it feels.  Ok, flame free vent over. Thank you.

AustinBride06

ETA update: Just got back from my annual.  OBGYN says that it's not looking likely for this cycle ( at DH... sigh) because of our timing so she doesn't want to "count" this cycle as a tried-and-failed cycle.  She wants us to do at least 2-3 more solid cycles with good timing before we look at further options and/or testing.  She also said to take a break from temping and just have fun with it.  I was going to attempt to do that anyway... but I don't know how we're going to get our timing right without temping and OPKs, especially since my O date has been on day 19, 18, 16, and 15 on the four cycles post-miscarriage.  And the sex every other day thing is not going to work for us.  It's clear that we cannot schedule sex... it just takes the sexy out of it for DH no matter what we do to make up for that.  She was talking Clomid possibilities for the future, but I'm still concerned about getting our timing right.  Sigh.

kiarox2002

Update: The provera may have actually worked.  I started and stopped my period on my own.  Woo hoo!  Then on Monday and Tuesday I had come cervical mucus.  I didn't inspect it, so I'm not sure what "grade" it was, but we did DTD on Tuesday.  We'll see I guess.  I'm not feeling super hopeful.

katattack615

No confessions here to speak of.  I started acupuncture yesterday, and I have a good feeling about it.  We took a month off leading up to this, so we'll see what happens. 

MnMShaw

SareBear30:

Just a little bitter here. Not super upset yet each month, but I'm getting that way. I know we haven't been trying for years or anything, but as the months eek by, it's getting frustrating. I think I'm more upset with my body than anything. Each month when I get my period, I'm upset that I'm not pregnant, but I think I'm more upset with the absurd number of migraines that I continue to get, despite everything I've done/tried to fix them. I am just so hopeful that 1) I can get pregnant, 2) I will get pregnant, 3) that my migraines will be better during pregnancy. Whiny vent over.

I completely agree and get it.  To me, it makes no difference if you have been trying 3 months vs. 23 months.  When you want a baby and you are doing everything you are supposed to do and your body won't cooperate.... it sucks. 

MnMShaw

Obviously I don't have a very positive update given my vent earlier in the week.  I am beyond frustrated.  I just want to bring home a baby.  DH said for the first time last weekend "I just want a baby so bad" and my heart broke.  I have faith but each passing month makes it hard to keep that faith and keep a positive attitude.

My vent is that I am tired of hearing "it will happen when it's supposed to" and "stop stressing".  If only that was the only problem.  Also, today some of my friends and I were joking around today and picking on another friend and I jokingly said "are you pregnant?!" and her response was "nope, and I wouldn't tell you if I was".  She said that because I told her about my mini meltdown earlier in the week.  I know she didn't mean to hurt my feelings but it did.  I don't want to be this miserable chick who no one can tell they are pregnant and she is pretty much my best friend so now I'm afraid to talk about any of this with her.  This just all around sucks. 

AustinMimi

AustinBride06:

ETA update: Just got back from my annual.  OBGYN says that it's not looking likely for this cycle ( at DH... sigh) because of our timing so she doesn't want to "count" this cycle as a tried-and-failed cycle.  She wants us to do at least 2-3 more solid cycles with good timing before we look at further options and/or testing.  She also said to take a break from temping and just have fun with it.  I was going to attempt to do that anyway... but I don't know how we're going to get our timing right without temping and OPKs, especially since my O date has been on day 19, 18, 16, and 15 on the four cycles post-miscarriage.  And the sex every other day thing is not going to work for us.  It's clear that we cannot schedule sex... it just takes the sexy out of it for DH no matter what we do to make up for that.  She was talking Clomid possibilities for the future, but I'm still concerned about getting our timing right.  Sigh.

Just curious what she said about the RE and getting a referral (I'm guessing in a few months?)?

 

I just want to give everyone a big hug. Furthermore, I think we need a FJHH: Holiday Edition. Who's in? 

agran

AustinMimi:

I just want to give everyone a big hug. Furthermore, I think we need a FJHH: Holiday Edition. Who's in? 

 I'm IN!!!  I really need a drink :-)

AustinBride06

AustinMimi:

AustinBride06:

ETA update: Just got back from my annual.  OBGYN says that it's not looking likely for this cycle ( at DH... sigh) because of our timing so she doesn't want to "count" this cycle as a tried-and-failed cycle.  She wants us to do at least 2-3 more solid cycles with good timing before we look at further options and/or testing.  She also said to take a break from temping and just have fun with it.  I was going to attempt to do that anyway... but I don't know how we're going to get our timing right without temping and OPKs, especially since my O date has been on day 19, 18, 16, and 15 on the four cycles post-miscarriage.  And the sex every other day thing is not going to work for us.  It's clear that we cannot schedule sex... it just takes the sexy out of it for DH no matter what we do to make up for that.  She was talking Clomid possibilities for the future, but I'm still concerned about getting our timing right.  Sigh.

Just curious what she said about the RE and getting a referral (I'm guessing in a few months?)?

 

I just want to give everyone a big hug. Furthermore, I think we need a FJHH: Holiday Edition. Who's in? 

I didn't ask about an RE because it was pretty obvious she thought we weren't at that point yet. I tend to agree that our timing hasnt been great sometimes and knowing that we have gotten pregnant before makes me wonder what an RE could do anyway. But I feel like the acupuncture is starting to work bc my cycles really are getting better.  I think at this point I'd rather continue w that than take more pills every day. I dunno. I've got a lot of travel coming up for work. Hopefully I get to go to Paris in early March. So I'll give my OB a call then and also look into an RE.  

el_twirpo

AustinBride06:

Hopefully I get to go to Paris in early March.

can you take DH with you? like spring break for him? paris ought to put him in the mood. :-P 

sandieleeann

Update:  I started charting for the first time on Monday, and I feel like I have no clue what I am doing.  I don't know how helpful this will be for me.  I also have my annual appointment next Thursday which I am kind of excited about.  I have a lot of questions to ask and I'm hoping for some good answers and to leave feeling like something proactive will be going on.  I have been off birth control for 7 months now, but I've only had about 4 cycles.  And only one of those cycles were under 40 days.

 

Vent:  I am also sick of hearing it will happen when it happens, I get mad when I hear about people not even trying that have a baby, and I'm tried of the IL's hinting and asking about it.  I want it so badly and I feel like my body is failing at this, so to constantly be asked about it just kinda feels like kicking me when I'm down.  I REALLY wanted to be able to tell everyone at Christmas and had a fun cute way of it, and I'm super bummed that won't be able to happen.

AustinBride06

el_twirpo:

AustinBride06:

Hopefully I get to go to Paris in early March.

can you take DH with you? like spring break for him? paris ought to put him in the mood. :-P 

I don't think the timing works out unfortunately. And my schedule would be total insanity anyway.