Parenting after a Loss

It's been a year and it feels like just yesterday

It's been a year today since I lost my second angel, and although so much has happened since then it still feels so raw. I'm thankful every day that Quinn has joined our family and I know that it wouldn't be possible if I had been able to carry the baby last fall, but I selfishly want them both. I really hate angelversaries. Therefore since I just fed Quinn I'm going to have a glass of wine and cry about it. 

Also, in case she's lurking from PGAL- Trishiepoo, just want you to know I'm thinking of you and sending you love today too. It never gets any easier- and you never forget. (HUGS) 

After two losses, a rainbow arrived! DD born 11.5.11
Dx with severe Asherman's syndrome after a botched PP D&C (pursuing med mal)
Hysteroscopy Oct '13, not enough progress 
Hysteroscopy Jan '14, given an end-of-the-road diagnosis
Joined International Asherman's Association April '14 
Not ready to give up yet.
Hysteroscopy with Dr. Isaacson (an expert in the USA) 6.2.14: Good prognosis, at least 50% of cavity open.
Repeat hysteroscopy scheduled with Dr. I on 6.16.14. Great progress. Unbenched!!!!
Discussing actively TTC with DH after the heartache of the last year. We're both reeling.
Please, please, please. 

Re: It's been a year and it feels like just yesterday

  • Just wanted to offer you hugs. I'm sure there are many of us who feel that way about angels, too.
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  • ((big hugs))
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    BFP#1 1.28.10; HB 6w5d 2.18.10; No HB 3.8.10; Natural m/c 3.9.10 at 9w3d
    BFP#2 - 7.22.10 DD born 3.16.11
    BFP#3 - 8.11.11 DS born 3.27.12
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  • ((hugs))

    My angelversaries (love that, btw) are coming up shortly and I'm feeling a little sad.  Tomorrow will make 2 years from my first BFP and December 8th was when my loss was confirmed.  It doesn't make us love our LOs any less that we still think of our angels.  We should never forget them.  ((more hugs))

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    i wish i had both of my children too.  but its so hard to think that if i didn't lose DD, that DS wouldn't be here.  it's such a hard emotion to deal with.

    lots of ::hugs:: enjoy that glass of wine!

    formerly laurc Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers Lilypie Second Birthday tickers Lilypie First Birthday tickers BFP#1- 12.31.09- EDD 09.10.10- our angel Ella born sleeping on 09.03.10 BFP#2- 03.09.11- EDD 11.13.11- DS born 10.29.11 via successful induction BFP#3- 6.27.12- EDD 3.5.13- CVS 8.28.12, it's a BOY!-- DS2 born 2.14.13 via successful induction
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    BFP #1 9/23/09. Missed MC 10w3d D&C 11/3/09.

    BFP #2 4/13/10. Bridget born 12/28/10

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  • ((Big HUGS)) to you today. 
    TTC #1 since 8/09
    BFP#1 - 9/2/10, EDD 5/14/11, Twins Hannah and Liam lost 11/7/10 @ 13w1d.
    BFP #2 - 2/9/11, EDD 10/13/11, LO lost 2/13/11 @ 5w4d
    BFP #3 - 5/9/11, DS born 1/13/12

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  • Huge huge hugs...I just passed my second bfp that quickly resulted in a drawn out loss. A few people told me I have come so far and I almost felt they expected me to be grateful instead of sad. Although our LOs are amazing gifts it doesn't change the pain of the past. You will never forget and I'm sure it makes you 1 billion times the mom. I'm sorry for the hard day....snuggle that pretty lady for me and enjoy some wine!!
    BFP #1 6/18/10 Saw HB 7/15/10 Missed M/C 8/17/10 @ 12 weeks 2 days- 2 D&C's( 8/20 and 8/26) BFP#2 11/21/10 Nonviable at 5wks, possible ectopic. Methotrexate 12/3/10&12/9/10 BFP#3 3/10/11 Beta@12dpo 39 Beta@14dpo 160! 21 DPO 2439 HB at 7wks 127 EDD 11/17/11
    ITS A BOY!!!! Born 11/13/11 BFP #4: 10/29/12 edd 7/11/12
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  • (((Hugs)))
    Nov. 19, 2010 BFP #1--m/c Dec. 24th, 2010 First cycle after m/c on Feb. 2, 2011--March 8th, 2011 BFP #2 EDD Nov. 19, 2011. Nadia Dorothy Grace born on 11-18-11 @ 3:04pm 6lbs 14oz Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
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    BFP#1 10/5/09 | Heartbeat 11/1/09 | D&C 11/24/09 (no hb)
    BFP#2 02/18/11 * Beta@15dpo=215 * @18dpo=698 * @20dpo=2337 * @25dpo=10,931 * DS Arrived October 24, 2011
    BFP#3 08/12 | D&C 9/12 (no hb)
    BFP#4 Due May 1, 2014 Stick baby stick!
  • ((hugs))

    I just had my first anni of my loss a couple weeks ago.  Amazing how much can change in a year, isn't it?

    BFP#2 2.5.11 (EDD 10.15.11) DS born 9.28.11

    BFP#4 8.27.13 (EDD 5.6.14) DD born 4.23.14


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  • ((hugs))  Enjoy the wine and put your feet up.
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  • ((big hugs)) I feel the same way - I am SO grateful for L but am missing our angel baby so much more lately.The holidays make it tough!
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  • Big hugs... snuggle a little closer to Quinn today. 
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  • (((Hugs))) it's so hard to reconcile being happy about one baby but still missing the other.
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