Hi Ladies! I am mostly a lurker, but I introduced myself a few months ago when I was diagnosed with stage IV Endo. You guys were very helpful and supportive and I feel I need that today! TIA for any responses.
I had my first IUI on Friday and another on Saturday. When I went in on Saturday morning they said that I had ovulated one big follie and there was a 28 one ready to go any minute. So, they told me to have sex last night and this morning and as much as we can in between. He literally told me to "crop dust with sperm". Lol.
Anyways, sex is seriously the last thing on my mind these days. I don't think I could possible want it less. Is this normal for you ladies too? I just feel like I'm poked and prodded almost every day, having things rammed up my privates while people watch, and the thought of one more thing being put inside me is literally causing me anxiety! It also hurts because I had a laparoscopy/hysteroscopy 7 weeks ago.It took us 3 tries to have sex last night because I was so unenthusiastic and my husband was stressed because he felt pressured to deliver. This morning, same story, except we started arguing (because he was taking too long) and then stopped. We haven't had sex all day..
I feel like the worst wife in the world, I feel like I ruined the IUI and if it doesn't work it's our fault, and I feel all around like a huge failure at life. DH is very supportive and told me he understands, but he also told me that I was being insensitive to how this felt for him and that I was being very "mean" by wanting to get sex over with like it was a chore. I apologized, but at the same time, I feel like I am the one going through all this crap and all he has to do is spend 5 minutes...He gets an orgasm out of it, so how hard is that?! So I guess I'm horrible because I don't feel all that bad for him...
Please tell me how you ladies do it. I don't know how I can make this not feel like a job when it's so unappealing to me at the moment. Do you think we ruined our chances by not doing it this morning? Does IF affect your sex life, or am I just plain CRAZY?! I hope this isn't inappropriate to discuss, but after crying about it half the day, I just want to hear other people's experiences/suggestions/advice...I hope to start posting more often and getting to know you all!
Re: TMI Super Upset...Ruined IUI? (Long)
OMG, I could have written this, back when I was doing IUIs. Please know that you are NOT the worst wife in the world and that so, so many of us have felt like this. There is nothing unsexier than having to do it on command, for either party. We have had lots of tears and, um, an inability to finish around here. And some Viagra, too (just a suggestion in case you have to do more IUIs which I hope you don't).
But, if this will make you feel better: you did NOT ruin your IUI. The sex is a back-up; remember, very, very few sperm make it all the way up there from doing it the old-fashioned way. Even if you had sex a gazillion times, the IUI would still be your best chance at getting pregnant (i.e., several million little guys instead of just a few thousand or less!). It doesn't feel like that in the moment, I know--it feels like, if you don't have sex, it definitely won't happen for you. But this is NOT true!!!
TTC since March/April 2010
DX: MFI - less than 1 million sperm, 26% motility
DH put on anastrozole to increase counts
June/July 2011 100 mg Clomid + TS IUI#1 & IUI 2 - BFN :-(
Forced break due to DH getting spinal surgery in August 2011
IVF - January 2012: BFN
FET in April 2012 - BFP at 6dp5dt! Beta #1 at 9dp5dt: 82.5, Beta #2 at 12dp5dt: 352 Beta #3 at 19dp5dt: 6000, saw heartbeat and one little bean at 5W6D!
After nearly 3 years of waiting our LO was born December 18th 2012!