Most epic meltdown ever

Daisies1706

I had the biggest meltdown of my entire life yesterday. I'm so embarrased!

So I posted on Tuesday night about how Freedom Fertility effed up my medication order and I might not have my Gonal F in time.

Well, they called me yesterday morning at work and told me they didn't send my meds and they didn't know where I could get them. I started crying (I'd already done two days of stims and was a little emotional anyway) and asked the rep how this could've happened. She basically blamed the whole thing on ME because I didn't call them right away when they didn't call me. Really? REALLY?

I started bawling. As in big, ugly cry. It was just the last straw. I hid in the crying place I scoped out a couple weeks ago and cried until my eyes were swollen to little puffy slits. I made about 25 phone calls to my doc and all the specialty pharmacies and cried some more. It was like once I started I couldn't stop. My doc was furious with FFP and she spent hours helping me track down my meds.

I finally found my injects, but I needed to leave work early to get them before the pharmacy closed. When I went to talk to my boss I was such a mess that she felt bad and hugged me, which of course made me cry harder.

I just finished making fudge for my boss and my doc for being so nice to me. I feel so bad that I lost it like that!  

OnTheLanai

Oh my goodness! How stressful! Im glad you were able to get everything figured out! ((HUGS))

mizzougal08

You don't have to feel bad about your meltdown. We've all been there. IF makes us all behave in ways we aren't always proud of....comes with the territory unfortunately. Your boss and doc both sound awesome. Keep your head up girl! Hope you feel a little better after having a good cry. Sometimes I just lose it and once I do then I feel like I've been able to let go some of the tension and finally move on. GL on your cycle!

Bethany1026

Don't feel bad or embarassed... I termed myself "crazy" and really thought something was wrong because of the way I freaked/cried/flipped out over everything...you are not alone!

tgreenf

Awww, (((((hugs)))))  what a crappy thing to have to deal with!! 

SMF&ADS091507

We all have meltdowns! Yours was definitely justified, I would have cried too. Glad they were found in the end. And you are so sweet to make fudge for your boss and your doctor

Daisies1706

I was seriously bat sh!t crazy. 

kellyrn9956

Honey, you didn't do a darn thing that the rest of us haven't done as well. I average 1-2 epic meltdowns per month.

chels38026

Oh sweets, I'm so sorry! I hate days like that, but you should not feel embarassed! And yay for having a great doc to help you get your meds and a boss that seems to be understanding! Sending you huge hugs and the best of luck that the rest of your cycle goes smoothly!

jenn0620

I'm sorry that happened thank goodness you were able to get your meds. I can't believe they messed that up, I would be upset too!

DoubleBubble08

ugh, that sounds stressful! that was sweet of you to bake for them! :-)

Daisies1706

You're all the best. I don't know what I'd do without you! Nobody else I know would understand exactly how stressful and crazy IF can be!

jessa8909

I'm so sorry. . Sometimes we all just need a good cry.

MsGMChick

Oh sweets! IF gets the best of us all. I have at least 1-2 epic meltdowns a cycle. But you are soo sweet for making them fudge!!

akaksel

don't worry it happens! I'm glad you got your meds in time!

farmerlynda

kellyrn9956:

Honey, you didn't do a darn thing that the rest of us haven't done as well. I average 1-2 epic meltdowns per month.

This, exactly.  and (((hugs))) to OP.  It's unacceptable that they didn't send your meds, this was a totally justified meltdown!

psubride1012

Glad you got everything figured out!  I know how you feel - I have had a major meltdown in front of people before and felt embarrased that I couldn't keep it together.  Unfortunately, it's hard to control your emotions throughout this process; especially when hormones are involved!  Sounds like you have a very understanding boss though - fudge is a very thoughtful gesture! 

bulldogmama 09

Oh Dais, I'm so sorry!  Hopefully today is a better!!  HUGS!

BabyDreams711

Don't be embarrassed!! We put so much into these cycles each month and for something like that to happen, it is a very good reason to breakdown!! You do your part and expect the other "responsible" parties to do theirs! I'm happy for you to have such a great dr and boss to help you! And I hope you got to eat some of the fudge too!