Let's talk about things you just can't do

weddedwife

Mine is silly. We have a cuckoo clock that works. It has been stopped since 11/1 at 1 something a.m. I stopped it because my mom spent the night while DH was out of town and she was sleeping in the living room- I didn't want it to bother her. Less than 24 hours later our son had already been born and had died. I can't bring myself to start the clock again

roxyttandme

I can't watch the video feed our photographer from NILMDTL did for us. It is just too painful. I love looking at all our pics of Haleigh - but watching me hold her and rock her - is just too much.... 

dandywarhol

I can't look at my weekly "bump" photos or at the video clips of Sylvie's ultrasounds.  It is too painful to see us smiling and hear the excitement and hope in our voices when we hear the heartbeat or find out we were having a girl.    

My goal is to be able to look at them by the end of the year so I can include them in my annual "Year in Review" video.  It won't be a happy video this year.

 

I also can't sweep the floor.  I did a lot of sweeping and bending early in the day before we lost Sylvie.  I know it wasn't my fault but part of me feels that maybe if I hadn't been bending so much the tear wouldn't have happened so fast and I might've been able to keep her in me longer.   

Auki13

I can't bring myself to go through Annabelle's things and put them away.  I have everything in a bag in our bedroom and I can't bear the thought of those things being hidden away, even if it's in a nice box or something.  I was talking to my DH and he told me that it is meant to stay right where it is for now and we can put it away when we are comfortable with it.  One of the perks of it being in the bag is that my DD loves pulling out Annabelle's blankets and hats and cuddling with them.  It always brings me comfort seeing her with her sister's things.

hannahlb2

I can't watch the videos that we took in the hospital. I have a hard time looking at the pictures too. Just too painful.

johnnys june

I can't throw away ANYTHING I take off of Logan's grave to replace with new stuff -- flowers, the original plaque that was in place before the gravestone, a broken face (probably weathered), ect.  Most of it is still sitting in the trunk of my car because I don't know what to do with it.  Everything is faded, worn, and tattered.  It's been there for months.

mrssoprano

I can't look at Faith's u/s photos

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katmc1984

I have a VERY hard time talking on the phone... I dont do it unless its to my Mom Husband or I have to make plans , but then its on and off.

When I was in the hospital and we had found out Emily would not make it we were at the perinatolgist  getting our second opinion and I had to talk on the phone to the insurance company and that was the last thing I could do at the time... I lost it and there was lots of screaming on my part... Then after we found everything out I had to call my Mom and some friends to let them know... It was just terrible and I hate talking on the  phone now.

easjer05

I can't watch the u/s video.  It was four days before he was born and he is moving and healthy and alive.  I still remember the moment I fell in love - he was sucking his thumb.  I'm beyond grateful we have it.  But I've never watched it again.  Maybe someday.