- Pregnancy
- Baby & Toddler
- Parents
- Getting Pregnant
- Baby Names
- Product Reviews
-
Registry
- Community
-
More
Want a personalized experience?
Download the free app
Postpartum Depression
ironman2010
member
On the edge...........
ironman2010
member
I have finally come to realize that I must have PPD. Our DD is 5 months and I am seriously losing it. She had reflux starting from 2 weeks and so our journey with our first child has been incredibly tough. We currently live in London with no family or close friends nearby. However, I met a group of ladies through a baby massage class who have basically saved my life. We get together at least once a week and for a while I was feeling ok. For the longest time I just figured that everyone must feel this way and then realized that this all can't be normal. Unfortunately I check all the PPD boxes. Anger, anxiety, guilt, no sex drive, sad, unable to enjoy pretty much anything. The one that worries me the most is the anger. Sometimes when my DD cries I just want to break every dish in my house. Then I get upset at getting upset and just cry. I feel like a horrible mother most of the time and feel that my husband and daughter would be better off without me. I am just to tired of not enjoying motherhood and don't want to look back on my DD's first year and have to remember how much I hated it. Has anyone else felt this way? I am going to see my GP this week but need to know I am not alone.
This discussion has been closed.
Re: On the edge...........
No you are not alone... do you have a Facebook account?
join this group Postnatal Depression & Anxiety: HOPE & SUPPORT, it has been the place where I can let it all out and not be pointed out nor judged... Many mothers have felt this way, this group is a great resource for support....
Nope, you are not alone. Reflux is really hard to deal with, especially when it's a first child and you have no idea what you are doing to begin with (at least, that's my experience.)
I fall on more of the PPA spectrum, but I know how you feel, tired of not enjoying mothorhood and wishing it would be different. I'm glad you have a group of lady friends and hope that the appointment with your GP is positive. Please come back to let us know how it goes!
You are not alone and what you are feeling is actually more common than you'd think. It's also not something you can control. I suffered through PPD with my son and I didn't get help. With this new baby I will be starting an antidepressant as soon as I give birth. I realize now that it is a chemical imbalance prompted by the huge shift in hormones in addition to stress, lack of sleep and all the pressures of motherhood. I totally understand how you feel. If you need to talk feel free to message me. I read a few books on PPD, but the one I really liked was Brooke Shield's book " Down came the Rain". It gives you hope that you will get through this.
Hugs your way!!