I am on medication and in counseling but I have to get this out...I can't get over the anger I have towards my LO's biological father. I am so mad at him. He has never seen Grayson he has never even acted like he cared. Come to find out a previous relationship he had he tried to kill the girl. I AM SO GLAD THAT HE IS OUT OF OUR LIVES....but....I am so alone and hurt and I wish I could put Grayson in the bubble so many of you do so that he couldn't get sick. I have no choice but to take him everywhere with me and have him in daycare because I am a single mom. I am angry that all this happened to my poor baby.
This isn't meant towards anyone but I just needed to get that out. I just feel like Grayson is at a disadvantage bc I can't give him everything. I can't protect him as much as I'd want....
Re: horribly angry
Sounds like you are at Step 2 - Anger - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/K%C3%BCbler-Ross_model. It sucks. Really sucks that he's a lousy dad and not in your lives anymore. You seem to really have it together and know that - with his temper [trying to kill someone - OMG!] you are better not having him in your lives. Be angry!
But you have this though. You are going to give Grayson a wonderful life and you'll protect him just fine. I hope you have some family around that can give you a break.
You have every right to be angry - I agree with all the PP and hope that you have a friend or two you can turn to in your area.
I wouldn't say he's at a disadvantage, though! We all have unique situations that we're trying to make the most of.
Anyway, sounds like you're doing a great job protecting him.